Song: Control by Zoe Wees

(With some slight adjustments to make more sense with the characters)

Characters:

Ingall, and mentions of Sigrid, Gall's parents, Amar, and Maya

Context:

Ingall's biggest fear is losing control. Both of himself and of his surroundings. This fear was only amplified after his family's deaths. Most of this song takes place after the death of Ingall's family while he was living with Amar.

When Sigrid and/or Ingall's parents are speaking, think of it as an attempt to communicate from beyond the grave. They're watching over Ingall and struggling to deal with him so obviously suffering after they died.

Uh, yeah, most of this is just hints at trauma, lol

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(Starting out right after Ingall runs away from Amar. He's constantly paranoid about being found again and is always checking his surroundings. He barely sleeps, panicking when he realizes he has fallen asleep since that's his most vulnerable state.)

Ingall (24), sitting in a small hotel room with his back to the wall, watching the window: "Early in the morning I still get a little bit nervous, fighting my anxiety constantly I try to control it."

(A little later, Ingall's visiting his family's graves, confessing his struggles of moving forward without them)

Ingall (24), fighting tears): "Even when I know it's been forever I can still feel the spin, hurts when I remember and I never wanna feel it again."

(Change in the timeline! It's about a week after the deaths of Ingall's family and he's just moved in with Amar, who is, currently, very much milking the fact that Ingall is vulnerable. )

Ingall (17), to Amar (18): "Don't know if you get it 'cause I can't express how thankful I am that you were always with me when it hurts, I know that you understand."

(Change in timeline again. Amar is starting to become more obviously abusive, adding physical abuse to the emotional and mental abuse. Ingall's catching on and starting to panic because he realizes that, if he leaves Amar, he'll be homeless and constantly on the run. He feels hopeless and at Amar's mercy)

Ingall (18): "I don't wanna lose control! Nothing I can do anymore! Trying every day when I hold my breath. Spinning out in space, pressing on my chest. I don't wanna lose control!"

(Timeline change. Ingall's just met Maya the night after running away from Amar and the two decide to stick together. When May recognizes Ingall panicking after getting a call from Amar, she tries to help stabilize him and he confesses, without too much detail, that he ran away)

Ingall (24), to Maya (23) as she tries to comfort him after a panic attack: "Sometimes I still think it's coming but I know it's not. Trying to breathe in and then out but the air gets caught, 'cause even though I'm older now and I know how to shake off the past. I wouldn't have made it if I didn't have you holding my hand. I don't wanna lose control! Nothing I can do anymore! Trying every day when I hold my breath, spinning out in space, pressing on my chest.
I don't wanna lose control!"

(Timeline change. Going back in time for once! Sigrid sits with Ingall on his bed, comforting him after a nightmare.)

Ingall (10): "I need you to know I would never be this strong without you. You've seen how I've grown, you took all my doubt, 'cause you are home!"

(Timeline change. Ingall debates joining the rebellion, thinking back on everything that he learned after living with Amar for 7 years and seeing what Maya has gone through. Still, he wavers, aware that, by stepping into the fight, he'll be throwing away basically everything familiar... Oh, and May died... surprise?)

Ingall (24): "I don't wanna lose control! There's nothing I can do anymore! I don't wanna lose control! Nothing I can do anymore, anymore! Trying every day when I hold my breath, spinning out in space pressing on my chest!"

Ingall (24): "I don't wanna lose control."

Here's Kostas and Kyrie's song! I know I already made Kostas one, but I rediscovered this song and it was too perfect to pass up, haha

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Song: I Built A Friend by Alec Benjamin

(With some adjustments to make more sense)

Characters:

Kostas, Kyrie, Karma, and Ometz

Context:

Okay, this is both very sweet and very sad, bear with me.

As I mentioned earlier, Kostas's parents were never in the picture, Kyrie took care of him and Ometz, and Kostas was very close to Kyrie.

Even when he was little, Kostas had a knack for inventing things. He always loved science, and this love was enhanced by his sibling. From a young age, Kyrie did their best to get little gifts for both of their brothers and would often come home with little items that Kostas would use for experiments. Kostas always asked Kyrie to help him out because he enjoyed their company, and, one day, Kyrie came home with some random scraps and Kos got the idea to build a robot. He asked Kyrie to help, and they obliged.

When the robot was done, Kostas named it "Kai," which was also his nickname for Kyrie. Even though the robot wasn't remotely alive (as they didn't have materials to make it functional), it quickly became a symbol of Kyrie and Kostas's bond with each other, and they often pretended like it was living, including it in their conversations and play (keep in mind that Kyrie was only 10 when they started taking care of their siblings alone (they had help from old friends before that... they were adults), and only 12 when they started working).

On the night that Kyrie died, without giving too much away, Kai was also destroyed, leaving Kostas without his sibling and perhaps the thing that created such a strong bond between them.

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(We start out right after Kyrie came home with the supplies and Kostas asked them to help build the little robot. They sit at the makeshift "kitchen" table and hunch over their new creation)

Kostas (10), holding up the plastic arm of their robot: "We built a friend, with three pieces of plastic and a pen! We made him on the table in the den, you gave him your old cell phone for a head!"

Kyrie (15), smiling at Kostas: "And we spent holidays at our house, and we left presents in a stocking, and we bought bolts and things and strings, and a new watch. That's what he got!"

Kyrie (15) and Kostas (10) together: "And we had so much fun together, we knew we'd be friends forever! And we had so much fun together! We had so much fun!"

(Slight time change. Kostas befriends Karma (13) at 14 and starts spending a lot more time away from home, eventually spending a week away from home with Karma after letting Kyrie know. Kyrie was a little upset about their brother leaving even though he promised he'd come home soon, and they made Kostas promise that he'd be safe and let them know if he or Karma needed anything at all. Kostas did and asked Kyrie to take care of Kai for them both, which Kyrie also promised to do. The two left on good terms, but when Kostas and Karma met Quill, he got a little distracted and ended up being away for longer than he intended.)

Kostas (15): "Then I left with Karma in September, and we wept 'cause we can't be together. So I kept pictures to remember my old friend, my old friend! Then I met this person at graduation and forget my oldest creation, and I guess I'll see him next vacation.
Send my best, I send my best."

Kostas (15), about himself, Karma, and Quill: "And we had so much fun together, we knew we'd be friends forever
And we had so much fun together. We had so much fun!"

(Slight timeline switch. When Kostas realized that he'd been gone for two days longer than he said he would, he rushed home, intending to apologize, but when he got there, what he found wasn't expected. Karma and Quill were both with him when he found this scene.)

Kostas (15), walking slowly through his ruined house, freezing in the kitchen doorway when he spots Kyrie on the floor, holding a broken Kai: "I came home to find him on the table with a note, scribbled out in pencil, and he wrote that he just wasn't stable all alone, all alone. Next to him, an empty glass of water that he spilt all over the body that I built. It fizzled and it popped and then it killed, and then it killed."

Kostas (15), shaking and holding Kyrie, he can't cry. In the corner, Ometz is leaning against the counter, a cigarette in his mouth, Karma stands awkwardly to the side while Quill kneels next to Kostas, attempting to comfort him: "And we had so much fun together, we thought we'd be friends forever! And we had so much fun together, we had so much fun."

Kostas (15), staring blankly at his sibling as he picks up the pieces of their shared robot: "I built a friend."