sometimes i feel like giving up

i feel like im a burden to my friends and family

I don't even know who I am anymore one place I'm a total bad bitch and have an IDGAF attitude but then in another area I'm emotional

I wanna cry but I can

I feel like when I'm not looking there laughing at me

why did he choose her and not me? why do I feel like everyone hates me

why is it like every day I just feel like I'm a falling tower and that soon I'm going to hit rock bottom and just not be sane anymore