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hi. hello. . today might've been the worst day i've had (mentally) in a while. has anyone else here ever really wanted to message your friends, go out/do something but you simply lack the motivation to do it? i hate not responding to my friends but for whatever reason, on days like today i couldnt get myself to respond to them. . today i was supposed to get lunch/dinner with someone and i was a no-show. not that i wanted to ditch the meal.. believe me, i wanted to go! i just couldn't get myself up and out of bed today. the worst part of it is that on days like this i am fully aware that i lack the drive/motivation but i can never seem to change it until it's a new day. :') . this is just a quick rant I suppose- aha. no one is obligated to respond to this! if you want to respond, please feel free to do so <33 |
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Darkseeker
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aaaah i really feel ya. :') i'm shit at talking to anyone that isn't immediately in front of me, even my closest friends. i feel bad that i don't reach out, because i know it seems like i don't care but i think about them a lot i just. don't do anything with those thoughts lol. the way life is going recently i have no motivation to do things. my workplace might go under, which i kind of expected, but i don't know where i'd go. other doggie daycare places pay a lot less and i wouldn't be able to afford moving out, but for my own wellbeing i kinda need to move away from my family. :') but motivation. just feeling tired all the time or feeling like whether you get out of bed or not, it doesn't matter. i've recently realized how depressed i have been, and uh approaching autumn and winter hasn't helped. idk if you experience seasonal depression, but. i feel like i'm overdramatic about it, but i miss the sun and the birds and wildlife. i never realize how much i need that until it's all gone. |
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