im just so so tired. please just leave me alone. we stopped talking ages ago. why are you talking to me now? why are you messaging me and expecting me to defend my identity against your "opinions"? why do you do this, knowing that it hurts me? why is your only reasoning for it being "i want to have this discussion, and i want to die peacefully knowing we had this talk" even after i said i dont have the energy or will to debate anything with you, let alone my entire identity and the identities of my partners and friends. why did you ask for my birthday afterwards? why did you say that you've promised yourself that you're going to bother me at least once a year? why my birthday? did you really just want to ruin such a special day for me? why do you just keep wanting to hurt me?

im so tired of this shit. it's exhausting for me, surely it's exhausting for you? life is already tiring with everything that's happening, i don't need anything else weighing me down. i dont need you in the back of my head again. i don't need this shit.

please. just. leave. me. alone.