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Darkseeker
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Heavy. It's the only way to really describe how I feel without digging deep. I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a good life, good grades, and I have a job. Sure, the job is shit sometimes but that's expected. Lately I've just been feeling heavy. Too heavy. Like..like I'm under a 1 ton weight and I'm suffocating, but I don't want anyone to take the weight off because a part of me thinks I deserve it. I find it difficult to get out of bed, to even do the most simplest of tasks, or to even take care of myself. I don't get up to eat, to get dressed, or do hygiene. I can't get myself to finish projects that I've started and I feel like an ass for not finishing anything that I've started. I owe quite a few people art, and I can't even do that. Then I can't help but get jealous when I see someone getting something that I love, and knowing it's basically impossible for me to ever get those things. I can't spend my own monet on art or characters because my mom finds it 'stupid' and 'a waste of money'. I don't know what to do anymore. |
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Lightbringer
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Don't give up! When life seems to pull you down, keep climbing! Many of the things you are describing reminds me of myself a couple years back. Your mind just goes blank and suddenly you don't know what to do with your life right? Don't let the weight of depression pull you down! And yes, that is what it is.
Depression comes in many shapes and forms and this is one of them. When life wants to pull you down, you keep going no matter what. When you think you deserve it, tell yourself, "No! I will not stay down. I will get up and fight!" Right now, you don't believe you can do anything for yourself. Not true! You can do anything and everything if you believe you can!!!
Your family and friends are there by your side whenever you need them. If you are struggling, just say the word and they will be there. They have your back no matter what. Don't forget it! Explain to your mom why you think art and characters are worth the money. Fight for what you love and what you like to do! Your life is full of choices and only you have the power to decide.
Never. Give. Up! |
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Fall Month: 1 
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