i have little to no strength to do anything anymore. everything seems pointless and my self hatred is at an all time high. could use anything really, i feel alone. also apologies to anyone who commissioned me recently, might be slow my art is terrible and i hate it. sorry for the downer post, i don't like sharing things

Hey hey, you art is good! And you shouldn't hate yourself! Life isn't pointless, you just need to have goals, you need to complete them then make more! Also go have some fun! (First sleep and eat though) make sure you keep your strength up! Don't worry or stress! :D

Let me correct myself, your art is absolutely, Gorgeous

Talking to pro about this would be the best probably.

My opinion that is just my view of life:

I don't think I can relate, but my advice would be that you can have good and bad days, however many, and on good days do whatever and on bad do minimum you have to do so you can last till another good day-like eat and sleep. And life may be pointless, but I also think you can live to search that point or just live cause it is beautiful or if not pretty, life happens only once so why not try to make the most of it or just push through, death will come sooner or later and is permanent, life is now and temporary, no need to hurry towards the end.

I can relate. To everything you've said, actually. It took a lot to keep me going, but there are still days where I wonder if I'm ever going to see another sunrise again. But let me tell you this: you might feel useless, you might feel worthless, you might feel like you'll never amount to anything because you believe you're nothing on the scale of things, but no one is nothing because the bigger picture can only be made out of the smaller bits. You're not alone in anything you feel; we all just think we are because it's human nature, and it takes other people shoving it in our faces for us to realize that, no, we've had people like us around us the whole time, people that just took time for us to find. It takes a lot of time; it takes a lot of patience; it takes a lot of sweat, blood, and tears to get to the good part of your life--you just need to wait. It takes time. Everything does. As much as we may want to be able to skip all the bad and go to a point in our lives where we can finally, genuinely, freely smile, we just can't. We have to go through the bad parts first; it's part of how we grow. Hardship comes before rewards--it's just how life works, and we can't do anything about it no matter how much we beg the universe to change things.

I can't promise you that things might get better for you right away. I have no idea what's going in with you right now or what the future has in store for you, but I want you to try. Just start doing the small things. Baby steps. It'll pay off, in the end. Don't rush. You have time.

Thank you everyone. Been falling down a hole and I'm still falling but I'm trying:)

That's good to hear :)

It might be only a short distraction, but some songs give me strength so you could surf and search for some that fit your taste.

I think Shinedown might be good, or at least it is for me.