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† Jackson H. Kirra †
"Jack" ⋆ "Jax"
18 ⋆ gay ⋆ single ⋆ gets feelings way too fast
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appearance: Jackson isn't the tallest person ever, but he's not exactly short; standing at 5'9" tall. His skin is a light tan color and free from freckles/blemishes apart from some faded scars on his abdomen and a thin scar running from his elbow to his wrist bone. The scar is pretty damn faded, but due to the sheer length of it- it's quite visible. Other than that he has a few piercings; the bridge of his nose, a medusa piercing, a tongue piercing, and both of his ears are pierced. He plans to add some more piercings to his collection, he just hasn't decided where they'll go yet.
His hair is short and fluffy. It's naturally colored brown that's hinted with red, call it auburn if you'd like. He normally just says his hair is brown or sometimes he'll call it red, it depends on the day and his mood. Normally his hair appears brown unless he's standing in bright lighting. His hair is fair from straight, often appearing wavy or even curly, especially when it's wet. Jackson personally loves his hair and doesn't plan to let it grow out more and he most definitely does not plan to cut it shorter. If he was to ever do that, it'd have to be a really good reason.
Jackson really doesn't see anything remotely attractive about himself. According to the public nowadays, dark hair and light eyes seems to be what's 'attractive'. This teen has brown eyes, with the smallest hint of gold when bright lighting hits them. If you're trying to read his emotions by staring into his soul, don't bother. Jackson's eyes don't give away his emotions. He can easily hide his feelings and thoughts behind those chocolate coins. Even if his eyes did betray him, he's got a resting bitch face, aka a 'death stare' that makes people uneasy, forcing them to look away.] and break eye contact with him.
Jackson gives credit to the soccer team for his physique. His body is nicely built due to how active he is overall, not just because of soccer. He's not too obsessed with his appearance, but he does like to keep himself in shape. Not only because he knows it's a staple of being 'attractive' but because he genuinely enjoys having a healthy body. Jackson has a nice set of muscles on his abdomen, a soft/developing six pack, and a decent amount of muscle becoming apparent in his arms/shoulders. Despite that, he still has a lanky-ish build. He's underweight for someone his height and age by roughly 10-15 pounds, and because of that his hipbones are easily noticeable- especially if he's laying down.
personality: Jackson comes off as a pretty friendly person. He'll easily strike up a conversation with you! With that being said, he is a smooth talker. Now, with that being said, he never tries to take advantage of people by smooth talking them, not unless he's in a panicked state of mind (or if he gets you know... blackmailed), it's mainly for things like a joyride in a stolen car, singing and drinking wine together, or even straight up cuddling. He's a hopeless romantic and often thinks he has to smooth talk people into doing things when all he has to do is simply ask them.
This man can hold a serious grudge. It doesn't matter how long it's been, if you've done something wrong to him then he's going to remember it. Sometimes it's a bit too scary when he remembers everything down to a grain of salt. If you need anyone to remember anything, Jackson is the man to go to. Adding on to that, Jackson takes things to heart way too easily, which is why he can hold one hell of a grudge! This is partially because he lacks total control over his emotions, he blames it on being turned before he was an adult, claiming that he's still stuck in his teenage mindset. It may be true in some sense, but generally speaking he's just bad at controlling himself.
That lack of control can make Jackson dangerous. An example of that being the time he thought it'd be funny to fight a football player. Although the jock was drunk, Jackson didn't hold back. He let the feeling of adrenaline and pure excitement override his emotions, and as a result he lost control. Not only will he do things he isn't supposed to do, but he'll do them to the extreme. He's predictably unpredictable purely due to his lack of full control of his emotions. Someone get this man a stress ball or something-
When you dig further into his psyche, you'll learn that he is an absolute softie. If you want to paint his nails or play with his hair, he'll let you do it so long as he gets to see you happy. Jackson aims to please, with little to no asking price. A smile is good enough for him, maybe even a hug. He's a very touchy/feely person. His love language is 100% physical touch/affection with a dash of quality time and words of affirmation.
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likes: sunsets, jewelry, the smell of roses, wine, rainy weather, sweet foods, dancing
dislikes: the smell of metal, spicy foods, the taste of blood, needles, getting animal fur on his hoodies, hot coffee, reading
hobbies: taking walks late at night, writing (poetry), laying in the grass at a park and stargazing, occasional singing
bad habits: biting his lip, twirling his hair, crossing lines/boundaries, getting attached to people (he does it very easily, it's bad)
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Jasper L. Smith 17/ Gay/ single/ shy sometimes Appearance: Jasper is slightly over average height, standing at about 5'10. While he is an athletic person, there are no defined abs, his build is leaner. Though he does have broader shoulders. His main muscle is in his legs, running is a favored activity so he has built the most muscle there. He is not very flexible and is rather naturally stiff when it comes to that. Now, if you find hands attractive, he’s your guy. Talon’s hands don’t appear overly bony, and he has long fingers. While his palms may be a bit rougher from working, the tops of his hands are more smooth, some veins are visible. He is the type who speaks with his hands, and often cracks his knuckles if he is nervous. His skin tone is “sand” with neutral undertones, he can tan well and doesn’t burn too easily. His eyes are something to behold he had the rare central heterochromia, where the inner ring around his pupil is a different color than the outer area of his iris. Now it’s not too noticeable, since the inner ring is smaller than most. But his outer iris color is green, the smaller inner color is a light brown. Talon has long dark lashes that frame his orbs. As far as his hair, he has the "curtained hair” hairstyle, with the longer sides and middle part as well. The actual color of his hair is dark brown. His hair is on the curly side and is quite thick. The actual length of his hair is more medium length, though not long enough to touch his shoulders. What I'm getting at is a "Timothee Chalamet hairstyle", for reference, though nothing else about him is the same. He may style his hair in a hasty bun, half up and half down, if it needs to be out of the way. His facial features could be considered somewhat defined. A jawline is visible, but not crazy. His nose isn’t too small or large and could be considered a Greek or straight nose. It’s not turned down to look like a break, nor turned up, his nose is more “level” looking. He has very light freckles across his nose. His lips are thin and are slightly paler looking than most. Jasper’s smile is straight and shows off his straight white teeth, from many years of braces. He has small dimples when he smiles. Personally: Jasper could be viewed as a shier, then a social person to someone who may not know him. Being comfortable with crowds or strangers is also something one might notice about him; he is not one to overthink and honestly couldn't care less about how others perceive him. He didn't come to this camp to focus on building relationships with random people. He may be open to it if you persist. he doesn't have the best relationship with his mother at the moment. While he has more of a big personality with his friends, he tends to change more around other people. He still doesn't mind them and is comfortable, but he rather sticks with his own small circle, Jasper won't go out of his way to try and be friends with everyone. It isn't that he wants to come across as rude, or anti-social, he is an overall nice guy. But he doesn't like a whole lot of change out of the blue with his social life. Jasper is more of a patient and easy-going person. It takes a lot for him to have a temper, but he can still get frustrated with himself, or pushy people. This male is also capable of disliking others, though it would take quite the snob to come to that point. He is also quite protective of those he loves and his horse. No touchy unless you want to get hurt. He gets fired up quickly if anyone threatens or hurts those, he is close with, that's the only time his temper is easy to set off. Jasper’s relationship with his friends is interesting. Being wilder around certain people and toning it down around others. He also knows how to have fun, but won't pushy anyone to do so or push anything bad. While he can be expressive at times, Jasper mostly finds it hard to express his feelings. He just gets all awkward and will fumble with his hands or hair. Jasper is always up for a challenge, and is willing to push himself, He is very competitive. Like: mornings, singing, bird sighting, and walking alone dislikes : bullys, rain, gloomy weather, and talking sometimes Hobbies: keeping to himself , reading at the park, and helping people out Habbits: when scared playing with his hand or hair, even bitting his tongue |
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Today was a perfectly normal day for a perfectly normal teenager named Jackson who had a perfectly normal life. Except he has one big secret, he's gay. As much as he tried to deny this fact to himself, it became increasingly obvious that he was in fact gay. It made sense. When he dated a girl once, he abruptly cut things off as soon as she had tried to become physical with him. He could handle hugs, but when she tried to kiss him? He drew the line there. Pair that together with the dreams he had about a very specific member of Black Veil Brides, and it snapped him into reality. Of course he was gay, it just made sense. However, it only made sense to him. No one else knew, not even his family- nor his friends. If he ever tried to come clean and come out, who's to say that his entire life wouldn't burn down in flames? He didn't want that, he didn't want change. He was afraid of change, and nothing could ever make him think 'today is the day, I'll come out!'. That idea was far from achievable in Jackson's mind. It was further away than the sun is to earth.
Sitting in the driver's seat of his car, Jackson happily beamed at the Starbucks employee as they handed him three drinks in a cardboard holder. Beside him in the passenger seat, his good friend Anise squealed, "Yes! You're the best, Jax." The auburn haired teen smiled back in response to his friend's excitement over coffee. In the back seat, Nicholas rolled his eyes, "It's coffee, Anise. Get yourself together." The brunette scoffed, playfully reaching back to hit Nicholas as Jackson set the holder with their drinks on his lap, pulling out of the drive-through, "Alright, alright. Calm down before y'all make me spill our coffee." Instantly the commotion died down and Jackson was able to hand his friends their drinks without the worry of dropping the cups. The last thing he'd need was coffee all over his car.
"So, should we jsut dip during lunch? I really don't want to sit around allll day when our last three classes are watching movies." Anise laughed, shaking her head, "You don't want to watch Charlie and the Chocolate factory followed by Toy Story and Grown Ups?" Jackson groaned, "Hell no. If I'm going to watch a movie, I want snacks and I want to be comfortable. The seats absolutely suck!" Making a wild gesture with his hands, Jackson drove his point home before taking a long drink from his coffee, one hand on the steering wheel as he drove to school.
This was their routine. Jackson would pick both of his friends up, drive to a Starbucks or Dunkin, order them all coffee and they'd gossip and chat until they got to school. Then they would all go their own ways until lunch time, then they'd spend their last three classes together. It was a routine he didn't want to change, he couldn't afford to lose that comfort and joy... even if it meant he had to lose cash every day for coffee. It was all worth it in the end, seeing how happy his friends were and how happy it made him to see them like that. Maybe that was why he never came clean to them, why he never plans to. He couldn't afford losing any of this, them. As he finished off his coffee, Jackson pulled into the school's parking lot, head bobbing along to the song Limbo by Freddie Dredd, "Annnd we're here!"
Today would be a good day, it just had to be. Maybe the group would drag a new person into their bubble and skip the last three classes today. A fourth person honestly sounded like it'd be fun. Three is an odd number anyways, who likes odd numbers? |
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Jasper woke to a beautiful day which he through it was but today wasn't the day to be a dreamer about that. Jasper walks out of the house and in to his car since he didn't talk much, he had not a lot of friends, as soon as he hit the road, he turns on the music and rocks to it. Jasper pulls in the dunk donuts and to the drive thru when a young girl came on the mic which she said “hi welcome to dunk donuts what can I get for you” Jasper sighed before saying “I'll take a mocha and a butternut donut “, which was his favorite donut to eat on a day like this, Jasper pulls up and stop in front of the window and smiles at the girl before giving his card and waiting for her to be done and give him his card back. _ Jasper looks in her rearview mirror and sighed before she gives back his card and also his coffee along with donut Jasper smiles and said “thank you” the girl nod and he drives on one more stop before school of course it was going to be boring and who wants to be sitting and watching movies after lunch not him but he had to join him thanks to his age. Jasper drives along the road towards the computer shop where his computer was it broke by dropping it on the floor thanks to his mom trying to clean his room. _ Jasper pulls into the computer shop and parks before getting out and walking in side and said “Greg do you have my computer fix or not I need it for school” Greg laughs and said “I got it right here Jasper don’t worry it is fixed, no need to pay your mom did that already “Jasper said “thanks “Greg “and grabs his computer and walks out, Jasper sighed as he got into the car and drove off in towards the school thinking about things. _ Jasper calls his mom and she answered “son your welcome I had to pay since I am the one who broke it “Jasper sighed and said “thanks mom don’t worry I’ll pay you back” she laughs and said “don’t son I don’t need the money” Jasper said “okay bye mom” then he hangs up and sighed before paying attention to the road. _ Jasper sighed when he saw all the cars going into the school and sighed before saying “here goes the traffic for me”, Jasper watches the road and finally got to be able to make the turn but he had to make sure no cars were coming first before going into the school parking lot and to his only spot he parks out far from other people and a walk to the school. Jasper smiles and said “my spot as always no one else to ruin the day for me “. |
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Haphazardly getting out of the car, Jackson watched as other students pulled into the parking lot, his brown gaze stealing quick glances at some of the other male students. His gaze settled on one student in particular as he pulled up to his spot further away from everyone else. He recognized the teen as Jasper from some of his classes, though he had never made an effort to try and talk to him much other than a small question every now and then about what they were doing in class.
Anise's gentle shove pulled him out of his thoughts, his face heating up ever so slightly, "I'm sorry, what?" His friend laughed, "I said, are you checking out a pretty girl?" Her words made his stomach drop, his heart felt like a dartboard and her words were the darts. Shaking his head, Jackson laughed it off, "Yeah, yeah. You're sooo funny, Anise. Let's get to class, yeah?" Pouting at her friend's response, the brunette sighed and nodded, grabbing onto Nicholas' arm and dragging him alongside her and Jackson as they casually walked towards the school, "So, we actually dipping after lunch?"
The soccer player nodded dramatically, "Of course. Do you really want to stay in three classes watching three different movies that we'll never finish? No. We can go to a movie theater or go hang out somewhere and actually enjoy our day." Throwing his empty cup into a trash bin, Jackson then ran one of his hands through his soft hair and sighed, "We just need to figure out how we're going to leave. We can just... run? I don't know, but I really don't want a teacher trying to stop us." The odds of a teacher actually stopping them from leaving was small, not many of them actually walked around the school anyways, especially during lunch. None of them would want to sacrifice their one break to watch students, so their "escape" would be relatively easy.
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(Is okay I usely like do long post on computer but I'll try best I can on phone ) _ Jasper looks at the guy you was looking at him but looks down quietly tired of People starting at him. Jasper head to school walking along and sighed hearing the people in front talking before ignoring them it wasn't polite to listen anyhow, Jasper sighed and said "what am I going to do at lunch before the movie run or stay I rather not get into trouble by the teacher " as he nods to himself, everyone through he was weird talking to himself about things but he didn't mind any of them they use need to back down _ Jasper walks into the school hall way and said "excuse me "to the people in front of course his friend is waving him down no not him,Jasper walks past the people and said "stop waving your making me feeling even scared of being here" Vince said " come on it was just a wave and ways no one going to laugh at you for me waving " Jasper said " and how do you know they did last time, everyone knows I am shy to talk to, I only talk to you so what with you " as he head for his locker to put his computer into it _ Vince said " maybe you should try and talk to people they would be really friendly I bit " Jasper said "no kidding why Don't you leave me alone sometimes I don't like talking okay" Vince shrugs and walks away. Jasper sighed and said " Vince I am sorry I didn't mean to snap at you " Vince nods and said " I am just trying to help you " Jasper said "I know you are" as he walks back and grabs his note pad and walks back to Vince and said "I guess I'll see you at lunch "Vince nods and walks away, Jasper heads off towards a class that he was in. |
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"There's no way! Are you into that girl from social?" Anise's muffled giggle drew Jackson out of his thoughts, his brows furrowing as he watched Nicholas vehemently shake his head with a grimace, "No! God no, have you seen her? She's far too fancy for me." Rolling his eyes, Jackson took his backpack off, holding it in his left hand as he walked down the halls with his friend, absentmindedly thinking about what could happen if he chose to come out to his friends. Would they be supportive? Would they ask annoying questions? Probably, friends always asked annoying questions. Who would they be if they didn't? As the trio stopped at their lockers, which were conveniently next to each other, Jackson listened as Anise bickered with Nicholas, teasing him about he was sooo in love with a girl name Marie.
Any other day it would be funny to the auburn haired teen, he would even be chiming in and helping Anise make Nicholas turn as red as a cherry. Today wasn't one of those days, as much as he wanted it to be. It wasn't a bad day, not yet, but it was certainly a bit of an off day for him. Who knows what convinced him to dwell on his secret. He hated it though. Some days he could wake up and not give two shits about it, other days- he'd sit and ponder what his life would be like if he was to no longer have that secret.
Once they had all managed to stuff away their bags, they waved a simple goodbye to each other and parted ways. For the first three classes of the day, the group would be separated- much to their dismay. So, Jackson gave his friends one last smile before he walked off towards the first class of his day, creative writing. Maybe he'd find a way to write about his struggles while keeping it a secret. He'd have to remember to not turn it in though, the last thing he needs is for someone to get a hold of it and piece it together.
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Jasper walks into the classroom and sat down pulling out his computer he has his out dairy in his laptop so he writes his own thing in there like him being gay, his sister is annoying, and he had his mom to worry about, Jasper sighed and reads his gay part and sighed he would never hear the end of the story if he had told his mom, Jasper smiles and starts typing when class's started that way the teacher through he was typing what she was saying. ____ Jasper types " how do I know I am gay well there is a lot of thing first I don't take a fancy to girl,second I don't care being huge by them but kissed I do , third I know I am gay " then read the sentences over and over before smiles and looks at the teacher their would be a lot of girls wanting to talking to him if he wasn't gay ___ Jasper walks out of his first class once it was done and when to put his computer away since his second class hate computers in the room "no cheating" teacher rules. Jasper sighed and walks to his locker and put the computer in a real safe spot ( Sorry for mine being sort) |
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