I hate how I can't stop myself. As an example, I had a bag of salted peanuts that I nearly finished in an hour. I know I'm gonna feel awful later on, and the insecurities have started to kick in. I wish that I could just stop myself and eat normally, like any other person. I just hate myself for this.

This happens to me too somewhat. I start binging then once I'm done, I start feeling guilty and that I'm going to be fat and just start sprialling a bunch and then I just work out a bunch. I'm just trying to say that I can understand that feeling of inmence guilt and shame that comes from binging. You're not alone in the struggle.