Grayson “Gray” Varon
“In our most dazzling daydreams hide our worst nightmares.”
Full Name:
Grayson Aero Varon
Nickname(s):
Gray
Commander Varon
Varon
Sir
Age:
24
Gender:
Male
Sexuality:
Bisexual (Beyond Closeted)
“Ethics - a concept developed by lesser men. People all die in the end, one way or another, don’t they? It’s how you use them while they’re here that counts.”
Appearance:
Grayson is a man who possesses a clean shaven, diamond shaped face; consisting of a set of higher resting and defined cheekbones, a sharper rounded chin, and smaller narrow forehead. A light dusting of freckles stretch over the bridge of his nose and reside on the tops of his cheeks. The young man possesses semi-hooded eyes which are framed by long yet thinner sets of lashes that possess a blond tinted pigment to them. The hues of his eyes reside within the realm of a piercing shade of sapphire; with a brightly potent blue hue akin to the open ocean. And similar to the sea being both merciless and cold, as well as calm and steady, Gray’s eyes tend to reflect such qualities according to his moods as well. Above his eyes are the arched brows that are thinner than average, yet still possess a natural sharpness to them. They are the same shade of honeyed-champagne that his neatly combed blonde lockes are in, with his hair being an evident product of grooming while his brows are naturally tame. Gray’s nose is a simply sculpted aquiline structure, with there being a straight slope as well as base, and otherwise average in appearance. Below his nose is a faintly defined cupid’s bow, which adds a soft flare of definition to his thinner, pale rose tinted lips. And from these lips resonates a rather modulated voice that is both clear, and generally steady while still maintaining a vastly unwavering lace of authority.
The young man stands quite confidently at his height of 5’11, with a build to him best described as rectangular; meaning he’s rather proportional in terms of alignment with his shoulders and hips. There is a toned athleticism that is greatly evident to him, and it is accompanied by the poised and highly disciplined stature he possesses. Gray’s skin tone could best be regarded as a soft ivory, paired with cooler undertones to give his overall complexion a healthy, yet paler complexion. He can hold a very subtle tan in the harsher summer weather, but it hardly delivers much more color to his skin. On the right side of Gray’s chest, just below the collar bone, he is marked with a tattoo of two swords forming an ‘X’, accompanied by four words in a small cursive font, ‘Fortune Favors the Bold’. In terms of scars littering the soldier’s body, he is certainly not exempt from having a few. Grayson very much considers them all to be ‘craters of imperfection’, despite most believing they could stand as testament to the various trials he’s overcome. They can mostly be found along his forearms and lower legs, with a few thinner and faded scars on his abdomen, as well as his lower and mid-back. Most of which have been earned in combat, or training.
Dressage for Gray is what could be considered fairly simple. It mostly depends on the setting he plans to be in though, of course. For occupation and various other professional scenes, Gray could be seen in a darker black military grade outfit, or his white uniform; both of which have the name ‘Varon’ stitched into them. Casually, Gray prefers simpler T-shirts and dark colored jeans, paired with cushioned sneakers. It wouldn’t be completely uncommon to see him in sweatpants and a hoodie, either, but that’s really more of an outfit tailored to his mood. For the far more rare and more formal occasions he may find himself in, silky dress shirt button downs and perfectly tailored over jackets and slacks will make up his attire. With the rise of an elite-tailored society though, begrudgingly Grayson has found his formal attire becoming more and more worn by the month.
“Pain? You don’t know the meaning of the word… yet, but I’m more than willing to teach you.”
Personality:
Grayson, if it had to be put simply, is an individual who was forced to become a man well before he ever had the luxury of being a boy. He was not allowed the freedom to romp, and play, and make pretend with toys and an imagination like most children. Gray was to be a soldier; first, foremost, and forever. Gray endured the lessons that taught him he could only rely on himself in the world, and he embraced the ‘fact’ that people in general were either too ignorant to pay any mind to, or they were waiting to catch him with his guard down in order to drive a knife into his back. This instilled paranoia as a child fractured Gray’s entire psyche, yet the male was molded to persevere by the man he called ‘father’.
Rather than simply let fear consume Gray as a child though, his father taught him yet another lesson; weaponize it. Fear is a powerful motivator. It surpassed basic methods of getting people to act. It inspired people to bend to conformity, and such a thing Gray learned at an early age. And such a tool Grayson learned to wield. The male was also taught how to expertly get into people’s heads and use them before they ever had the chance of doing the same to him. As a result, Gray learned how to weasel his way into other people’s minds, and ultimately use them for his own bidding. Generally he spares no remorse for how this gripping manipulation affects the people he’s using it on, but Gray does refrain from and ultimately refuses to use such tactics maliciously against children.
Everything Gray does is the product of careful consideration. He doesn’t like abrupt change, impulse actions, or things going awry, which in turn makes him struggle a bit with adaptation. But because of Gray’s innate ability to see things several steps ahead at a time, and with his willingness to take charge, he projects remarkable leadership qualities as well as an enviable calculated frame of mind. Gray’s entire aura demands respect and resonates with an intimidating diligence though, so it comes to no surprise that he would flourish and thrive in places where he makes the calls.
Getting genuinely close to Gray is the equivalent of climbing Mount Everest; very few will ever make it, one must be prepared to endure a cold and difficult journey, and one must really want to make it in order to reach him. Gray’s hindering sense of paranoia makes trusting anyone a difficult feat though, as he’s always pondering the ways anyone could stab him in the back. It’s easier for him to assume everyone has an ulterior motive in order for him to justify being cruel and using people as pawns on a chess board though. This aspect to his persona has led to Grayson never actually having ever experienced close personal relationships with anyone, other than his father - but that relationship is not by choice. Gray will always choose to keep people at an arm’s length to ultimately protect himself though.
Of course, wielding the level of manipulation that Gray does requires a greater level of intelligence. And Grayson certainly has an impressive mental prowess going for him. He’s more of a technical and logistical kind of intelligent creature, but he’s also rather gifted in terms of reading people. Not only has he been taught to note and observe every little thing people do in accordance to what they’re saying, but he’s spent a long enough time observing a sparse variety of people to get a decent grip on who someone is just by a moment of observation. And because Grayson excels in reading people, he knows exactly how to thwart anyone else’s attempts in getting an intrusive read on him.
Even before being thrust into the current horrific state of the world he's found himself in, Grayson has been accompanied by his compulsions for complete cleanliness, and he values it on a near religious level. Those in his company are equally expected to adhere to his standards of being clean. This dire need of his compels Grayson to loathe human touch of any kind - it internally sickens him to even shake hands without a barrier protecting his own flesh, It would be a rather peculiar sight to glimpse Grayson not wearing his usual white gloves. They provide a sense of comfort to him that he could never begin to explain to another human being. While it was purposely overlooked while he was growing up, Gray does demonstrate quite clear acts of obsessive compulsiveness, albeit he’s become rather good at disallowing even the most random of triggers to put him into an obsessive cycle - at least publicly.
While the blond finds it imperative to carefully mind the words he chooses to speak, sometimes he cannot help but to express his more sarcastic wit. Most of the male’s spoken phrases fall into the categories of either being orders, degrading comments, or heavily sarcastic remarks. While Grayson does possess a sense of humor, his is starkly defined as being a distasteful strain. What Grayson finds humorous usually involves darker elements or entertainment at the expense of others’ misfortunes.
On a more human, and genuine level, Grayson is a man who isn’t as terrible as he allows others to believe. But for the sake of his own survival, he abides by living strictly in accordance with the image and reputation he has built for himself. Coveted beneath his ruthless and cold shell though is an individual that actually possesses a heart. He may not always lead with it, but he sure as hell has one. Defenseless life forms manage to coax his sense of buried empathy out from him, though he is abundantly cautious in openly expressing any ‘weaker’ emotions. Grayson could never be cruel to something truly innocent or incapable of harm though; children and animals are typically his kryptonite, much to his dismay. It would make him feel much more at peace if he didn’t have a heart at all, and if he was incapable of feeling guilt or remorse, and wasn’t dictated by the mortal flaw of experiencing emotions that he’s so begrudgingly bound to.
“You don’t want to cooperate? Really, that’s just too bad. But you know what? I think painting these walls with your blood, and humming along to the melody of your screams will be far more delightful. Don’t you?”
Likes:
~Respect; Regardless of the means he uses to obtain it~
~Practicing Good Hygiene~
~Storm Gazing~
~Accomplishing Tasks~
~Cleanliness/Cleaning~
Dislikes:
~Loud Individuals~
~Disrespect On Any Level~
~Failure~
~Dirty Places/People~
~His Father~
Strengths:
+Combat; Hand-to-Hand, Artillery, Throwing Knives+
+Observant+
+Fast Learner+
+Manipulation+
+Agile+
Weaknesses:
-Various Internal Struggles-
-Insomnia-
-Workaholic-
-Brute Strength-
-Crippling Soft Spot For Children/Animals-
“Trust is for children, don’t be so naive.”
Family:
Deryk Varon - Father - Alive:
Deryk Varon is the former Secretary of Defense, and naturally an individual who is both formerly and currently highly respected by not only his peers, but a vast majority of people in general. It’s a shame this ‘good man’ facade ends with his occupation, as Gray would know best the kind of wolf in sheep’s clothing his father is. Deryk, by all means, is not fatherly material. He’s harsh, cruel, belittling, and has expected more out of his child than the soldiers he once mercilessly groomed to perfection. As much as Gray despises his father by all accounts, he still possesses the sick, childish desire to please him.
Nadia Varon - Mother - Deceased:
Nadia was a beautifully kind and loving individual, inside and out. Her heart had always been plastered to her sleeve, and it had cost her more than one time. Her marital relationship had been on the decline for years before Grayson was even in the picture, and it only deteriorated further when he was born. Nadia though, did not live to see her son make it to five years of age before an autoimmune disease claimed her life. Gray has very few memories of his mother, but he does know that she was a never ending fountain of content and love in the time they had together.
Background:
WIP
"I do not care what they think about me. And I do not ever think they care about me. That is how I survive at the top, because it is the only way to survive at the top."