So you see...
I helped one of my friends not do dumb shit, we bonded over that and we fell in love. He homewrecked me but it takes two to tango.
We ended meeting in person (we had been video chatting and texting)
We deepend our bond in... ways...
Afterwards- Things start falling apart, he starts having issues with his dad, he starts acting "different". He later goes on to tell me "I haven't been feeling love for you romantically for the past month. He ends up transitioning to a she and has more issues with her dad. Her mom is having mental health issues so she goes to see her and spend time with her, shit starts going down at her moms house.
I have this gut feeling something is wrong and bam, something was. (can't say, sensitive shit)
We tried having an open relationship so we don't have to let go because it was fantastic before but that didn't work, we knew it wouldn't.
Fast forward to today:
I have been trying to keep us in touch because fuck, I gave so much to stay with her and that she was happy. I don't even want to be with her I want her to be safe.
So today I was feeling alone, insecure, and there is a lack of trust I feel for anyone who trys showing love or affection towards me since my now ex lied to me for a month about it.
I expressed for once I felt alone and insecure and asked her for comfort and said I was pissy and I ended up apologizing for it. This is what she had to say (Quoted from our messages, no word editing, nada.)
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Look in sorry things aren't going well for me and I'm overwhelmed with school and more things idk what to do anymore im sorry I should stop talking
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[5:05 PM] As much as I hate to say it we don't work, I don't think we can work as partners like ever and it's just bc I need low maintenance people, in all honesty in probably not going to date again, as I said you're my last not bc in giving up on love just bc I love you more than anything and I know I won't find that again and I know this won't ever work
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[5:05 PM] It hurts me to even have the thought cross my mind
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[5:07 PM] I understand if you want to go off on me or anything, I deserve it, I promised you everything and I can't provide or uphold it"
Now I'm crying because one...
I feel a small since of closure.
Two...
It's never going to work again, and we're falling apart and we might never talk again.