A Canine’s Philosophy

I honestly don’t remember when I actually fell in love with you

Maybe it was the day we met

Or the second

But it’s like you grabbed me

Not in the bad way

It was like holding me back from jumping

Jumping to my death

You held onto that leash of mine

That red-string leash that tied us together

I don’t even think you knew you had it

But I remember thinking of you every time I wanted to die

The fact I hadn’t kissed you yet made my heartbeat go crazy

Just the thought of you made my face red

Every time I heard your name or caught your scent I felt butterflies

I no longer feel them, for they have made a home in my stomach

They’re still there

Still flapping for you

I remember you forcing me to play games

Forcing me to to step out of my comfort zone

You broke me out of my shell

You made me realize that life is worth living

I wanted to die, to leave the earth and never come back

But it was you I always thought of as I watched the lines on my wrists redden

I’d do anything for you because you saved my life

Anything

I love you like a dog

I love you like I’ve got missing limbs for you

I love you like every second is slowly getting me closer to your lips

I honestly just want a kiss

I don’t care if we end up making out

Or making love

I just want you to know that I’m deeply in love with you

You could hit me and I’ll come back

I love you like a dog

I love you so much my heart aches until it explodes and I pick up the pieces

Once I put it back together, I just keep on loving you

I don’t care if my food bowl is empty or that my fur is unkempt.

I would pant over you until you pet me.

I would scratch at the door to be let in.

I would pace the house, waiting for you to come home.

I would sleep at the foot of your bed.

I would howl your favorite songs.

I would growl at the people who made you cry.

I would lick away your tears.

I would whine for just a kiss.

I would lay at your grave all day and all night just for my body to decay.

I would then love you like a rotten dog.

Sometimes I question myself

Am I just being a hopeless romantic?
Am I just holding onto the past?
Am I just faking it at this point?
No.

No.

No.

I love you so much

I love you

I love you

I love you

Get that through your head

I don’t care if you move on

I’ll still love you and my heart will still be in pain

Because the person I stayed alive for

The person who saved my life

Doesn’t know they have

I love you so fucking much

I love you

I love you

I love you

Lord all i want is you

I don’t want flowers I don’t want diamonds

I want you

I want you so badly

Your name still makes me perk up

I’d do anything for you

I’d rip out my guts and put them on display for you just so you can see the real me

I’d bite you so I can taste your sweet blood and kiss the mark

I’d kiss you until our lips become swollen

If a kiss is the beginning of cannibalism,

Then I want you to devour me

I love you so much that you even fucked up my poetry

Now every single word is about you

I’m so deeply in fucking love with you

I love you

I love you

I love you