please do not copy/steal any art posted as they belong to me and me only. I drew these pieces. So credit belongs to Nezity@ " I'm sorry were you expecting someone else? Adorable" ∧ HUGE WIP ∧ Age: 25 Years old Gender: Man Species: Shifter > WereHyena Appearance: Normal human form posted below. words, words words Art credit goes to: SlaughterHouse Were hyena form( Headshot only posted below) words on body...words nice ∧ Personality: If I didn't know better, I would say Banvot was casually built different. With the very common terms of: softie, caring, kind, loving and would die for his people. But then that would be half a lie and wouldn't be very descriptive would it? That would be leaving out his most defining traits such as his serious mommy issues, his yearn to be loved and his notion of being the last man alive even if it means fighting a war that will only result in death and not just his own. Now look, we go down this same path with another, but this time this man fears being left behind; he fears not being loved enough and even if he was being loved he would proclaim it's not enough. Some call it a toxic trait, Banvot would call it a toxic traumatic experience dealing with a mother who couldn't find something not to drink or something not to smoke; and please don;t bring up his caring loving father because that bastard left years ago. The bastard who sired a bastard would only look at him with disappointment, but Banvot proved that he was much more; that he could be much more than just a fertilized egg sack that was born. He wanted to be the special egg, he needed people to know that he was worth the praises. Worth is something everyone needs once and awhile, but for Banvot every thought process and message he sends to anyone only comes back in just rambles, jumbles, babbles. He knows that his yearn for this being isn't much more than just a traumatic response because love was deprived from him as a young seed; he doesn't want anything else just for people to see him succeed. You may take this however you like, could be weakness could be just an excuse to get attention but Banvot knows deep inside that this, that his feelings aren't just a big joke; there's a lot of things he wants to get off his chest but for the sake of people tolerance for him he keeps that inside and works. Because working is the only desire that fuels him mentally; now I'm not saying Banvot can't be loved; or chooses to put all his energy into this one notion. There's more to Banvot then just the fact he has issues and needs; no wants to be loved by everyone that crosses his path. There's the fact he's awkwardly humorous, and charmingly a slob. Yes, he's a slob even if he's working day and night he always finds time to throw something on the ground even if it's just a pencil. He works better in a messy environment. But beside that, Banvot is a pretty swell guy; sure he's not much of a feeler, or someone to come to with problems unless it affects his people but he's swell, right? Sure, Banvot is swell; sure Banvot is a nice guy with a nice heart and nice glasses. He's just nice? I think it's time to tell the truth, Banvot couldn't be more nicer then he is, but he knows people will find one trait- one invisible simple trait that makes a human breath wrong with him; so he pretends to be swell, he pretends to be nice and caring because honestly that would be less work then trying to be his true self, a self destructive, gaol craved, crazed, mommy issues driven, daddy walked out little charming piece of dog shit. Being nice is much easier then having to explain why he acts like he does, people have fucked him over many times and therefore he just too tired to strike back; so have at it at this point Banvot would rather focus on something worth his time then a petty insult-war. ∧ Speaking of being focused, Banvot isn't easily distracted when his mind is set on something. Something different about him is that when his plan seems like shit he'll offer any suggestions even though he would hate someone to badger the whole idea of the plan and rearrange it into their making; it's weird yes. But alas, being graceful and elegant isn't really striking to Banvot; he prefers to keep things messy and wild; like a wild card Banvot could be seen as out of control and angry; well in case you skimmed over some pieces Banvot is angry, a angry little shit out for blood and not just his own. See comments like that makes people believe maybe he wants to die? Maybe he wants to die just to prove he did something with his life? In that case, Banvot totally agrees; he knows his side death dark humor comments could be taken out of context because he was raised differently. But it doesn't excuse the blantly insensitive side of others from this humor, so he tries to subdue that part of him even if he does need some laughs. Moving on to touch on the subject of his soft tender side, Banvot might look and act like a total asshole who might use you to prove to people you don't even know that he's worth seeing, that he's worth loving and that his worth itself isn't below dirt but there's a side you'll probably rarely see( Unless he is fond of you); a side where he's gentle and calm, where his reasoning and compassion are so deep-rooted he makes angels look lazy. His tenderness is most liked by others, yet rarely seen which makes it hard to actually show it- like stated before he pretends to be nice because it's much easier than admitting that you, yourself agrees with everyone that you're a assard with zero compassion or care about anyone. So in other words I lied, Banvot is pretending yes, but just because pretending is much easier doesn't mean it can't be rooted into a real trait, he almost enjoys being gentle with others; he almost wants them to see how well he can do with others, he actually cares? A lot can be assumed of Banvot, but the biggest two things to know are that he's trusting and functional. Of course, he's also qualified, merciful, and understanding, but these are in a way negated by being furtive as well. His trusting nature though is what he's often idolized for; Oftentimes people will count on this and his discernment whenever they need assistance or service. Nobody's perfect of course and Ban has a share of darker sides to deal with too. His pretense and nastiness can cause things to heat up, though more on a personal level than for others. Fortunately, his sensible consideration helps make sure these days are few and far between. Now onto his mommy issues, sure he's to blame for his mother drinking therefore he should always blame himself to carry himself to great things? Isn't that how it works? Isn't that how people treat trauma nowadays, blaming themselves so they could feel some sort of anime like power surge to defeat all the big bad guys? Or did Ban miss that trendy train, people are made to believe to blame themselves for other people shit so Ban like everyone else blames himself for someone else misbehaving. He can't be more blinded by guilt and rage than this, what else do you guys want from someone who watched his mother drink herself to hell and back? Please enlighten Ban heart by telling him how to deal with such lose, other than putting his all into working his ass off and trying to remember to breathe. He tends to forget the feeling of pain, having set his nerves into a safe to protect what he has left of his innocence. Anyways, the cause of this lose is probably why he's 80% ass and 5% sweet tooth, and the other percent is put into how he deals with different people. It's a lot of work and exhausting causing Ban to half ass his way through life and up until now it's been going pretty great. " It takes a real man to admit he's afraid" And that's exactly what Ban is, afraid of lose, afraid of hate, afraid of anything that threatens his usual lifestyle. He's scared to lose anyone he sees himself with as well as himself. His whole life was built around proving a notion, proving to people he could be become someone powerful- no longer receiving kicks but giving them. That's him suffering, and he'll admit it with pride, he's afraid and there's nothing wrong with having the fear of being left behind to have no one beside you in times of need, every time someone curses his name he has another reason to live. So you might say he's a stubborn bastard with blood dripping from his hands of his past and future enemies, you might be thinking," Banvot is the type of man who'll seek revenge only to bathe in the blood of his enemies", and you're right; revenge is another normal human trait for being fucked over and so why shouldn't Banvot acquire such trait after explaining how his rightful proclaims are; if anything you'll agree with him that revenge is the only way to go, forgiveness is only targeted at someone who stole a candy bar from your desk, or stole your girlfriend only to knock her up and so your ex friend and ex girl made some bastard child. That. That can be forgiven, something like disrespecting Banvot can not. " Ugh your a monster" ∧ Indeed Ban is, a confusing yet intelligent monster, he could be cruel or rude; but it's his choice on what you see on the surface. It's his choice if he choose to be a dickard toward people; but alas he doesn't have much time for all that bickering mess, he has a goal in this world and that's to keep his people safe. There's a difference between Banvot people and people in general, please don't dare confuse such a thing that can easily be spotted from afar; he's there for his people and would risk his life for his people; he'll scream for his people. He'll find ways to get his people to the Golden gates of life even if life seems hard for them, because like him they are just people( or shifters/ etc) trying to live in a normal life and survive to have some sort of future. If he doesn't have his people, then Ban would be alone and that's something we all don't want because he'll surely forget that his life is as precious as another, he'll forget that he only has one life and it shouldn't be taken lightly, he doesn't take steps back when lose hits hard, he actually just becomes a reckless version of himself. A killing robot seeking out the next victim; and being a were-hyena doesn't help his killing urges which are usually drowned out by thinking of his family he wants, needs to protect. Whats the point of hanging by a thread of going on a killing spree if you end up hurting your only family? Banvot is a lot of things. But he'll never surrender even in the hardest times, so he's much like a leader and a soldier, someone to make the hard decisions but also someone who will fight til his last breath. You can see Ban however you'll like but know that his leaderly traits won't ever go away, no matter how fucked over he might seem or how weird or how confusing he is- because at the end of the day it won't matter. He grew up on his own so his insights are different, and difference shouldn't be shamed or judge, he's surviving and he's alive, different yes but alive. Strange yes, but alive nonetheless Banvot will always be someone who would never someone based on their appearance or what they did in the past; it's what they are doing now that will have his final thoughts. It might seem selfish that he refuse to be forgotten and would do something out of history but like I stated before; he's alive and that's what matters the most. ( His personality will be changing throughout the roleplay or any roleplay he will be in, that be offsite or onsite. So I made a stopping point for right now because I might come back later and add more) ∧ Back-story: I would rather lie and tell you that Banvot was one in a million that had a perfect life, loving mother, crazy dad. But I already exposed half of his life so there is no point. Banvot had one mother, and one father who created him out of pure love; that's how most stories start out, but this love was quickly infested with poison once his mother found love in another, forcing his father to put his attention into his work then playing with Banvot. A life truly meant for someone who //enjoyed// to dance, hence the enjoyed part. A cruel way to start life that was promised by two very consenting adults, but life wasn't done with Banvot. He lost his father who lost his mother who lost her mind; a recycled piece of trash keeping them from profiting. So leaving, Banvot found his father walk out a bit cliche, did he go get milk? So like any child, Banvot grew angry, and that anger grew into a mass ball of blackness filling his empty love and compassion; the bastard grew up to be the one you might know today but there's room for improvement. ∧ Strengths: Double trouble Sabre: Far sighted: Charming offers: Negotiation: None-Humans: ∧ Weaknesses: A Mothers love: HIs Worth: Spells: Clear head( When revenge spikes his blood thrist): Were-Hyena: Humans: Weapons of Choice: Sabre( "Backward sword"): Banvot might love his Sabre a bit too much. He's mostly good with holding two, one for defending his exposed parts and the other good for striking attacks; with one he's an amazing swordsman but with two he's a master at offense and defense. Katana: Another great sword, less likely to see Banvot giving it the blood it seeks; this weapon is used for training. Affiliations: Please read his persona thoroughly, he might be a new face but I prefer if the line between understanding someone deeply and just seeing whats on the surface, or what I show you is very thin. <33 Always open Other: If Banvot form is missing anything let me know, I don;t want anyone to have the blue(s) because of how messy it is. This took more then 4 hours to do, ouch. |