--

i am bored.

the boredom grows and grows within me, gnawing at the back of my mind incessantly. it's a hunger that cannot be fed by my usual go-tos of games and reading and thinking. no, it’s a hunger for something else entirely — i’m reminded of it every time i make a character for the sake of it, never to be used; every time i think of writing without the input of other people.

my creative side cannot be quenched with just thinking and drawing.

against heading back on the roleplaying website i deliberately stopped using, i set things up with friends. roleplay discussions go well. i make worlds and characters i’m proud of — draw them, talk about them often, am impressively attached to them. i get to express my creativity by trying to make grand worlds or concepts and then applying them to characters and i eagerly await the day that i can put it to good use and finally write something. yet, time goes by; months, almost adding up to a full year, and the amount of writing i’ve done still nets up to a whopping zero. plans are delayed. my characters remain collecting dust in whatever dark basement of my mind they remain in.

still, i wait. i try setting up even more roleplays. i create more worlds, more characters, more concepts for character dynamics and arcs. i wind up developing my characters more than i ever have, setting up entire arcs for them, never to be written; my worlds are eventually forgotten one by one, and i still have not written a single response.

as time goes on, i, too, get busy. i do schoolwork and go to events and talk to people, and yet, that itch still remains in the back of my mind. the pangs of a craving unfed haunt me, mind flooding with fascinations with concepts that have no outlet. i’ve been doing so much, and yet, i’ve still done nothing at all.

i am bored.

and just like that, i come crawling back to you.

---

out of pure boredom and a recent realization that my writing capabilities are steadily getting worse from lack of exercise, i’m searching for a (or multiple) rp partner(s). as you may have noticed, i am also putting an unnecessary amount of effort into it. the reason for this, my dear reader, is that i am looking for a long-term roleplay partner —someone with whom the roleplay will get off the ground and last a long while, i’d hope, but also someone that i can create a world with. y’know, something fun, something with a lot to it — either a lot of lore in the characters or in actual worldbuilding. it could be a slice of life so long as the characters are interesting with a lot going on with them, or it could be a grand fantasy with a great system and plot. i’d just like to find someone who i can make something with, or maybe share ideas i’ve already got with, and also be able to get to the part where we write with that creation. i’d enjoy that.

in terms of what i’m like to roleplay with, i typically write an average of a thousand words per post. i have a bit of difficulty writing above that (though i do not mind doing so) and i’m not a fan of going too far below, so i’ll give a range of 900-3000 for myself, considering some of my longer ones have gotten to 3000. you can see an example of what my writing looks like at the top there, except with proper capitalization, in third person (obviously), and in past tense (though sometimes in present tense due to the unforgivable crime of forgetting what tense i’ve been writing in). i enjoy making new characters for every roleplay i make and then forgetting about them instantly afterward, but i do enjoy gushing about them for the little time that i have them, and i also enjoy hearing about the characters of my partners in detail when i am in a 1x1 or 1x1x1 or whatever the hell i’m doing at the time. i’m very much a multiple character person and only having one bores me a little. added to the fact that i don’t really have a limit where my brain goes “okay, yeah, that’s too much”, when left unchecked the number will multiply like rabbits in a hole.

i only play humans as of late, though i’m also fine with humanoids, shifters and the like; anything so long as it talks and stands on two feet is fine by me, i guess. used to typically play male, but now i would say it’s a pretty even spread of male to female, occasionally trans. i play any age from 5-40, basically, though it’s recently been more skewed to the around-30s range; i am, however, perfectly alright with playing anything under or over that age. i like having a lot of range in the characters of a roleplay. it’s nice. having one character who’s 9 and another who’s 42 within the main cast is more fun than having the greatest difference be 19 and 21, but i don’t mind that either if it’s what makes sense for that particular context. in personality, my characters don’t tend to be particularly grounded, and their personalities are exaggerated in one sense or another, but i like to think they’re still balanced nonetheless.

i usually post once a week, sometimes more, sometimes less. because it’s been so long since i’ve been in a roleplay that got off the ground, you might have to be patient with me near the beginning, but please bear with me. if it helps, i am always open for discussion -- i love love love talking about characters, headcanons, possible plotlines, worldbuilding, whatever. ask as many questions as you want, tell me as many random facts as you want, contact me about completely unrelated shit as much as you want. i always have time for chatting, even if my brain is not allowing me to write.

in terms of relationships, my current favorite is definitely coworker relationships. passive aggressiveness, mutual respect but not quite friendship, rivalries, whatever, all within a setting in which they’re working together to achieve or do something -- i really, really love it. i also enjoy familial dynamics, mentor-mentee dynamics, characters who generally act as tutorials to the other character(s) but really don’t have that much more of an idea of what’s going on than everyone else, found family, whatever. romance is also cool (albeit optional), so long as the characters have chemistry, but never love at first sight. i hate love at first sight. i much prefer average to slow burns, so be prepared for that. i usually do fxf or mxm, but anything else is also good by me, i really don’t care that much.

because of the fact i’m looking for a long term roleplay partner, i’ll probably be at least a little picky with who i choose. that said, i don’t mean to scare people from signing up to be my roleplay partner -- i won’t bite if you don’t fit the bill, i promise. on the other end of the spectrum, if multiple people sign up who i would like to roleplay with who have similar interests and are okay with it, i might blend the signups into a 1x1x1 or just generally a small group (tops four people, including myself). if they aren’t, i might just pick multiple 1x1 partners. who knows.

as i don’t expect someone completely perfect to sign up immediately and i am open to having multiple roleplay partners, this thread is indefinitely open until i decide it’s not. it will likely open again if the roleplays die.

- EXPECTATIONS -

i. communication, communication, communication. communication’s the most important thing in a lot of shit, and this is definitely one of them. be willing to shoot down my ideas if you don’t like something, tell me if something’s not going to work out, warn me if you’re not going to be available or if you’ve got writer’s block, etc. i promise i will understand.

ii. be willing to contribute! that’s my greatest wish and expectation this time, definitely. i would like to have someone who i can make something lovely with without the stress of having to come up with everything on my own, because sometimes my little peepee brain does fail me and i can’t think of anything more or i get stuck on certain parts. plus, it’s just more fun to come up with stuff when someone else also has input. nice to bounce off of each other, y’know? so, contribution is important.

iii. in terms of responses, all i’m really looking for is enough to respond to. if a post is mostly just someone staying completely still and making internal observations, there isn’t much to do there, even if its 3000 words of it. as such, i only ask that your posts have enough going on in them to respond to, but in length, i feel like anything over 500 is probably enough to be substantial. if you have writer’s block, it can be less, i don’t care, but if that is the case, you can just wait it out until it’s gone. i don’t mind. the main reason most of my roleplays die, after all, is just because i tell people they can take as long as they want, never poke them, forget about it and then it never goes anywhere. that will still be the case with you, to be clear. you can take as long as you want. i just hope that you will respond eventually.

iv. talk to me all you want. i would actually prefer it if you did. it’s easier for me to keep interest when i’m in constant contact, and i really do enjoy hearing people’s thoughts on everything -- headcanons, thoughts on their own characters, thought processes, thoughts they had while making their characters, scrapped ideas, possible ideas, little things that reminded you of something related to the roleplay, thoughts on my characters, whatever. liveblog your life to me. i do not care. the more there is to read, the better, and the easier it is to keep my interest, as interest is a fickle thing and my time to discuss is far more infinite than my time to write. if you’d rather not for your own reasons, that is okay, but it would be ideal for me if this was the case.

v. please don’t respond too fast. if you get out a response every day, i’ll feel bad about taking so long to get back to you and i’ll spend all my time writing it until i get it out only for you to respond again and then i’ll repeat the cycle until i die. if you do wind up finishing soon after, you don’t have to wait to post it or anything. just make sure you take your time to write it lest i burn out from a self inflicted dilemma.

v. this one is more optional than the others, but i would prefer someone who can also play multiple characters. not necessarily infinite characters as i do, but just. multiple. i wouldn’t mind someone who can only do one or two, i just think the more characters, the better. it’s a personal philosophy.

vi. remember: all of this is always for the fun of the both of us! no matter what, if an idea comes up that sounds like it would be fun to you, go for it. if i get an idea that sounds like it would be fun, ask and i’ll probably let you enact it in my stead. if something sounds like it might take away fun, tell me about it.

vii. i am going to drop this thread in the sign-up forum and never advertise it. if you find it and see it’s pushed back really far or been really long, it’s probably still open. as previously mentioned, it is open until i say it is not. you will be aware when it is not.

* ADDENDUM: you will get extra points if you are capable of doing an fxf. it has been so long since i have even discussed the possibility of an fxf that if i meet one person who is happy to do it i will be incredibly impressed

now for the fun part — the list of topics! these are all things that i’ve either come up with in the past, came up with on the spot just for the sake of having more options to pick from, or had a vague craving for in recent times and thus wound up on this list. all of them will be only vague, undeveloped concepts so that we can come up with something more detailed together; those that do have already developed lore (courtesy of yours truly) will have only vague concepts for plot, those with more of a concept of plot will only have vague lore, etc. etc. it is also a possibility to combine some of these. i do hope that we can make something great together :)

i will add topics here as time goes on if i have not found a partner by that time and i think of any.

(note: characters are occasionally referred to as simply “muse” due to the general habit of using a "muse a" and "muse b" in these sorts of things added with the fact that most of these concepts have either only one or an unspecified amount of main characters. if it's the former, for the record, we can either discuss who gets the main character role or make room for two (or three, or whatever). all of these plots are flexible.)

- TOPICS -

THE MUNDANE
these are concepts that are rooted entirely in reality. because they’re based on mundane concepts, they’ll usually be basically entirely character driven — the intrigue comes more from the character personalities and their own stories, actions and lore than from the things going on around them.

i. found family. that’s it. a lonely muse going through the mechanic and practiced motions of life, one by one, meets and retains relationships with people who bring vibrancy and life to a dull and solitary thing until they’ve made an entire family worth of people incredibly different to them who they love and who love them. the day they realize they’re finally surrounded by life and people, they break down crying. that day is a happy one.

ii. a group of college students decide, against all their better judgments, to share an apartment (illegally, since there’s enough people in there to create a fire hazard, but that’s beside the point) in the name of affordable rent. like this, they get to enjoy the benefits of living with friends, getting each other to drive them places and make food and go to stupid events, and all the annoyances of aforementioned friends being insane, incompetent 20 year olds.

iii. after a couple of years of going through hell and back, muse a abruptly decides to try to start a band and become part of an idol group and hires their partner-in-crime, muse b, to be their bodyguard. muse b does not think this is a good idea, and continues to think it is not a good idea even as muse a and their bandmates get a chance to go on tour. muse a, of course, does this anyway, and drags along their companion despite the groups’ protests that muse b is a gigantic bitch. chaos ensues on the tour bus.

iv. a muse receives a phone call late at night informing them that their cousin (of whom they had no contact with for years thanks to location) has died, leaving their young teenager and child behind, and they were the only available next of kin. despite having never planned on having children, either out of empathy or greed for their inheritance, they agree to take the kids in. upon their moving in, they find two children who are far too used to taking care of themselves, too mature for their young age. the older acts as the primary guardian for the younger, they both are well acquainted with feeding themselves with instant food and neither of them have any of the energy someone their age should. with time, while they find that the unprepared muse can still only offer a dysfunctional home, they find that they can have a happy one, nonetheless.

THE NOT-SO-MUNDANE
my personal favorite, these are concepts that are centered around mundane concepts in far-removed contexts. they’re mostly character- and relationship-driven but have a running background plot or cool world lore to support the characters’ backstories and arcs, as well as give the actual events in the roleplay some extra flare.

i. the population of x city is just about all there is of the population after the monsters came. they’re horrific things — eldritch, almost, to a point where they could kill were ugliness lethal. it’s a wonder humanity survived, nevermind thrived — within the reinforced metal walls of the city, the population is steadily growing, technology is better than ever and the monster-suppressing force is growing steadily. you’re one of the elite members of this force, helping to lead your unit into escapades into the unknown to scout for resources from fallen cities and get refugees into the safety of the city and working with the other elites to repress as many of these creatures as possible. unfortunately, even the coolest of jobs come with annoying coworkers and a lot of paperwork, both of which you have to deal with more and more as the numbers and power of the monsters outside grow.

ii. the depressed muse a stumbles upon a gory scene where only a child, the 6 year old muse b, is left among the massacred bodies of their parents. they hesitantly take in muse b and later decide to adopt them, going through the troubles of raising a young child. eventually, they fall on hard times and take on an assassination job in order to make money for the both of them. they put the kid through school, meeting people to help them and perhaps falling in love, finding the will to live with this child whom they love as they carry on with their job in the background. when the kid grows older and has a kid of their own, muse a notices the child looks a lot like muse b. when the child is 6, muse a receives a hit on muse b. the next time they see them, they are in the room that muse a had found muse b in. realizing what’s going on and realizing that without having met muse b in that room, muse a would have died, muse a kills muse b and, in a fit of grief, kills themself. somewhere, muse a stumbles upon a gory scene.

iii. the angelfolk are the species in charge of order within the universe. they don’t act so much like a species as they do a post-mortem office — each angel, upon becoming one, is given their department of interest and complete assignments within it. it’s a constant flood of assignments. kind of like a normal job, but you work for the universe, you don’t get paid and you never get to retire. they don’t necessarily keep the peace, no; they just make sure that everything is balanced and running, not necessarily that it’s moral. several members of the head guard, the angels that are in charge of the universe’s corrective power and deal it out to the various departments when requested, have no morality or attachment to their jobs at all. some hate it, some are patriotic to it, some are incredibly moral and believe strongly in what they do, some have morals outside of their job and enforce them, too — while they’re all unquestioningly doing this for some sort of greater good, even if their methods are immoral, the head guard disagree on a lot of things, really.

which is unfortunate, considering they’re the only thing holding this damn universe together.

(similar in relationship to each other and underlings to the hashira from demon slayer, or perhaps the devil hunters from chainsaw man. more details available upon request.)

iv. detective agency x is an agency that mainly deals in underground ongoings. in a world with magic, it’s hard to hunt down crime — the black market, mafia, underground fighting rings and blood magic run rampant, hidden behind safeguards and mental blocks. the death rate is steadily climbing as organized crime takes lives and people turn themselves into hideous monstrosities using magic, and even with the constant stream of arrests of involved individuals, finding a way to stop it seems hopeless — that is, until detective agency x finds a lead in a young child, the offspring of one of the leaders of a larger organization. a few of the best members of the team (and perhaps some extra for emotional support) are placed on the child’s case. they are promptly put in charge of both taking care of the kid, finding out more about the organization and trying to put a stop to it once they do. they do not get paid enough for this.

THE FANTASTICAL
concepts with fantastical lore and fantastical plots. stuff you wouldn’t find in day-to-day life, very genre-driven, etc. etc. these can also be character driven, of course, but the plot and lore is essential to these in a way it isn’t in the other two.

i. the recently orphaned heir has newly inherited all their parents’ wealth and power, including kingdom x. to no one’s surprise, the young muse turns out to be an awful leader. far more surprising, however, is the heir’s declaration that the first person to find the fabled elixir of immortality (or the like), always assumed to be a wives’ tale by the general public, and bring it to them will replace them as the monarch. the kingdom falls into chaos both as a result of the little tyrant’s horrible ruling and their odd declaration — one or several characters, however, are more concerned by them showing up at their doorstep, declaring them a part of “their team” in the race to go find this magical item.

what a brat.

ii. the gods of the world, once protectors of all, were locked away after an incident that drove them insane led them to wreak havoc upon the world. after their banishment, they were demonized as the one ally that caused and survived the incident was idolized and crowned as king. 2000 years after they were locked away, when the binding of their imprisonment was weakened, they got their revenge — they gave their abilities to people who would be their descendants and carry on their will. with the abilities of the demonized gods, they, too, were demonized, leading to a grand sense of spite that led up to the day of the 21st century’s king’s crowning. on that day, they told their descendants to wreak havoc on the world that’s treated them so terribly, and they did. meanwhile, the descendants of those who locked away these old gods in the first place are told they’re the only people who can save the world from the gods. (incredibly shortened description of an old group roleplay that died that i later figured would work better as a 1x1. more details available upon request)

iii. after a strange, unidentified object is discovered and activated, every character in the room at the time is sent into an entirely different world. in that world, no one is human — humanoid, perhaps, but not quite; more so on the line between man and monster. the only person who remains fully human happens to be the only person who remembers what occurred, but also happens to be the most fragile due to their distinct lack of monsterly appendages. confused and disoriented, the muse must find anyone they can who are as close to human as possible so they may refrain from dying to the dangers of that world and figure out what the fuck went on. (based off of a dream i recall in vivid detail. more details available upon request)

iv. when a person dies, they become a storymaker. depending on how big of a part they played in their own story, they’re given a certain amount of universe to make their own story with — a part of a world, a solar system, an entire universe or perhaps a multiverse, all for them to do whatever they want with. they have narrative abilities and control over what happens in the world, but none over the actions of their characters. one day, in a relatively small story spanning only a planet, an average hero/antihero type is making a name for themself, only to start being able to hear the narrator. they shortly find out their story is meant to end as a tragedy, and as they continue on in life and make their friends and foes, they find they’d rather die fighting to change their fate, much to the grief of their author. (gonna write a novel within this universe. roleplay can either be in the same universe but different concept or by the rules of the wip novel. more details upon request if the latter)

OTHER

i. give me a genre/trope/whatever or two that you enjoy and i’ll throw out as many ideas as i can think of pertaining to those genres. you can then mix and match what you want to do and we can work from there :)

ii. give me your ideas! i’m open to basically any genre, so i’m sure i’ll enjoy what you have to say. whether it was a very vague concept you were craving to do at one point, a dream you had, something you’ve thought of but haven’t found someone who wanted to do it with you, etc. etc., throw it out there and, if i’m interested, i’ll take you up on it. we can flesh it out together.

- THE FORM -
for you to fill out so we can see if we’re compatible :’)

Pack Name:
Pack Number:
Average Word Count/Word Count Range:
About You:
What Topic(s)?:
Roleplay Example:
Why You Want to RP With Me:
Okay With a Small Group?:
Other:

CURRENTLY ROLEPLAYING WITH:

1x1 Partners
[0/3]

- x -

- x -

- x -

Small Group
[2/2]

(mundane ii)

- Sir Froggington -

- serein -