|~| Gorōta |~|
Name: Gorōta Sanae Ryuugo.
Age: 17.
Gender: Male.
Sexuality: Demisexual.
Poly/Mono/Both: Both.
Birthday: September 5th.(Virgo)
Blood Type: O-.
Alignment: Neutral Good.
Nationality: Japanese.
Starting Power: Healing. Touch based, meaning Gorōta would have to press his hand to the wound, and depending on how bad the wound is, the longer it takes to heal and the more stamina it takes to heal it. Either Gorōta’s stamina would be drained or both of the injured and Gorōta’s staminas would be drained.
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Meaning, if the wound is big/bad enough, passing out is something that could happen. Even more so, it means that small wounds would take about a minute or so, while bigger wounds (that run the risk of making them pass out) would take longer /to heal.
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The healing also leave scars, much uglier ones compared to if it was allowed to heal on its own.
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Appearance:
Gorōta resides at a height of 6’ 0”, though his back is usually hunched to where he looks 5' 10". His skin tone is a pale bisque with neutral undertones. He has plenty of freckles on his body, though especially at his cheeks, nose, and shoulders.
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Gorōta has a rather oval face shape, meaning he has a smaller forehead and a smaller chin, but the middle of his face is wider, the whole thing on the smaller side. His cheeks are rather sunken despite this, and he swears that it’s just because he is always so busy, usually being said in a dismissive tone as he works. Now for the nose, something that rather dislikes, he has a hawk shaped nose, meaning it starts off the same way a ‘normal’ nose would, and then goes off the deep end at a slight angle, the tip of it a bit lower than the nasals. His lips are downturned thin in shape, making slight, timid frowns as his most often seen expression.
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His eyebrows are rather thin, though with a slight arch. Despite them being thin and rather straight, the left eyebrow has a scar that starts a bit above the eyebrow to a bit under his eye. Finally, his eyes, the left of which he hates with a burning passion, they are deepset hooded in shape and a dark gray in color at his right one. His left eye is missing, leaving only a socket that he prefers people would just not ask about. His face is framed by black hair that is most often found messy and in his face, the tips of all of it going just below the ears in length, the back going down to the nape of his neck.
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His body structure could quickly be described as rectangular, a long torso matched with long legs, everything about him screams lanky. Especially when taking into consideration the fact that this man only weighs in at around 122 lbs, his BMI at 16.54 and being underweight by 15 pounds. He doesn’t even seem to notice the fact that he’s underweight, dismissing attempts to tell him by stating that he’s busy. He also sports quite a few scars too, the most prominent one is at his left eye, the other ones are mostly on his arms. Though, there is one at his neck, that he leaves completely unexplained, just like all his other ones too.
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Gorōta is someone that cares about what people think of him, and it’s fairly obvious with how he dresses. He usually wears a gray or light blue collared shirt, blue jeans, a black cardigan, and gray/blue tennis shoes. Or more likely than the black cardigan- A black jacket with a white 5 on the back. As for accessories, the most obvious and his only one, is black cloth tied around his head in order to cover his left eye.
Personality:
Gorōta is not the type of person someone would see as a people person. Stuttering with practically any sentence unless if he starts ranting, he can’t tell any social cues apart. He also ends up fidgeting under any type of stare, refusing to make any eye contact. He can also be jumpy around new people, and will often try giving nervous chuckles out to try and calm his own nerves, the tactic never really working.
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Within friend groups, he is seen as the peacemaker, always trying to keep everyone from killing each other and keep fights from happening. Despite his awkward and timid outlook, he hates hearing people fight and yell, so he’ll try to keep that from happening at any costs. Despite having his own problems to deal with, he’ll put his friends’ problems above his own and try to help them through theirs before even trying to acknowledge his own.
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Paranoia is something extremely obvious when it comes to Gorōta. Preferring to be prepared for anything, he’ll often think about absolutely anything that could go wrong, no matter how unrealistic it is. Due to this, he can oftentimes be found pacing while stroking his chin like a madman trying to think. Due to this paranoia of his, he’s more likely to lie right off the bat and then regret doing so immediately, but be unable to admit the truth because of his timid nature.
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He’s stubborn when it comes to basically anything, even with his awkward nature. Though, he’s easily intimidated and if you scare him enough, he’ll back off. But usually, it’ll take more than just some yelling and staring to scare him enough. Because when he really sets his mind on something, it’s more likely that raising a hand at him or getting into his personal space will get his attention.
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He's very rooted in fear, and maybe some subconscious level of shame. It's hard for him to believe everything will be okay or that he's actually good enough for the people around him. He tends to put anyone else before himself, even if he doesn't necessarily like them, just because he sees their lives as more important than his own. He has a very, 'I probably won't achieve anything as great as everyone else, so why even bother?' sort of outlook. He tends to think of himself as helpless, hopeless, and cowardly. Not really ever seeing(or looking for) the good in himself.
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He puts helping in front of everything, no matter what. No matter how he feels about someone, or how they may have treated him- If they're hurt, he's not going to leave them behind or let them die. He'd rather save a villain then let them die, even if it means they'll kill him instead. This carries over for the people he cares about, though he often beats himself up about how in the heat of a moment- He'll freeze up, unable to move and do anything if the need arises. He would love to say that he'd take a bullet for a friend, but his freeze reaction makes that impossible. And he hates himself for it, because if he could? If he didn't freeze? He'd be catching bullets for strangers or literal murderers even.
Likes: Learning, Helping, Sewing, Movies, Coffee, Books/Reading, Success, Open areas.
Dislikes: Fights/Conflict, Loud Noises, Being asked to pick sides, Attention, Failure, Large crowds of people, His eye getting commented on/asked about, Small spaces.
Strengths: Stealthy, Realistic, Observant, Lying/Hiding things, Intelligence, Preparing/Planning, Empathetic, Listening, Inventing/Hacking, Health science.
Weaknesses: Cowardly, Paranoid, Compulsive liar, His left eye, Easily guilt-tripped/manipulated, Lacks all physical strength, Awkward conversations, Easily intimidated, Not much stamina, Overly caring.
Hates: Conflict, Arguing, Failure, His eye.
Fears: Being useless/worthless, Being completely alone, Claustrophobia, Losing friends.
More Emotional/Logical: It depends, he seems more logical when someone meets him, but he’s definitely an emotional kind of guy about some things.
Allergies: None, thankfully.
Physical Disabilities: Asthma. His left eye?
Mental Illnesses: Nothing diagnosed, but probably Depression, Anxiety, Selective Mutism, C-PTSD, and developing Anorexia Nervosa.
Addictions: None, anymore at least. He used to have plenty. Like alcohol, smoking, vaping, harder stuff- He's been clean for a year though. He avoids most things if he can now.
Both/Right/Left-Handed: Both. He was born left handed but after what happened to his left eye, he sort of had to learn to do everything with his right. He still knows how to use his left for everything though.
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Background:
Gorōta grew up in Japan with his family until he was 10 before they moved to America. His childhood was relatively uneventful, the biggest things happening after the move.
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In America, he made a small group of friends when he was 14 and just starting high school. A very toxic group of friends, at that. He was often targeted to massive amounts of ‘teasing’ and ‘rough housing’.
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At some point while he was 15, his father lost his job and began drinking. His mother was oftentimes not home due to having to work extra jobs to continue paying the bills so they didn’t have to move again.
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In order to pass the time, Gorōta read books on physical and mental health, or really just medical books in general. He also continued to hang out with the group of friends he made when he was 14 as the years went by, though less often as his father oftentimes wouldn’t let him leave the house.
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Routines developed and stayed until he was newly 16 and his parents found him with his best friend at the time. They didn’t do much, just forbid him to be alone with his friend. They decided that sending him to the camp would get him to forget about his friend and come back to his senses, the final push to coming was from his other friends who had started using his interest in the same gender as another way to ‘mess around’ with him.
What They Packed: Extra clothing, his phone, his charger, some medical books, a small pocket knife, needle/thread(medical grade), and a small bag to carry it all in.
Themesong(s):
Doubt by Crywank.
Notches by Crywank.
Anxiety by Blackbear.
Trees by Twenty One Pilots.
Heavydirtysoul by Twenty One Pilots.
Level of Concern by Twenty One Pilots.
House of Gold by Twenty One Pilots.
Car Radio by Twenty One Pilots.
Screen by Twenty One Pilots.
Smithereens by Twenty One Pilots.
WHY by NF.
Black Bile by The Comedown.
Second Chance by Shinedown.
Iridescent by Linkin Park.
One More Light by Linkin Park.
Good Intentions by Dappy.
DROWN by AViVA.
broken again by eli..
Additional Information: Gorōta’s voice is on the higher side of the spectrum, not screechy or gravelly, but quiet and holding back. It’s what many people would think a scared voice would sound like, but it’s just his regular one.
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He is extremely prone to panic attacks and if he goes an entire day without one, he’ll have one because not having one is definitely something to panic about to him.
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Dad; Takeshi.
Mom; Zerone. 
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