yippee its science olympiad season! time for suffering and guilt

i feel like I could get a state medal if I spend every second I spend doing unproductive stuff (such as writing a 'vent' paragraph on some random squirrelsim) but I just can't get myself to. And I feel really guilty because of this?

i always end up doomscrolling or falling down some internet rabbit hole

i feel like i have more to say but I'm wasting more time writing this so I'm just gonna leave it at that. call me edgy but I'm not looking for consolation, just some motivation to get this shit over with.