Winter Month: 1 
Day 
why did i give a damn after our friendship went south?
why do i cry everytime you use the old jokes with the new friends?
why, why, why, why?
that's my first question.
why do i have to hold on to everything everyone says?
why do i have to hold on to the relationships i damn well know I'll ruin?
why do i push everyone away, but i feel sad when no one talks to me?
why, why, why,why?
that's my first question.
i just don't want to be hurt again.
i just want friends again.
why can't i just let go of everything anyone did wrong to me?
why do i cry myself to sleep?
why can't my mind wrap itself around this torture?
i want to leave this place.
why do i want to leave this place?
why, why, why, why?
that's my only question.