A red coma washing over me

Whats this fear?

Something so chilling

A sense of anxiety

Shaking, coughing, bleeding

A red drowning me

A paranoia

I can't shake it off me

I walk around my head hung low hiding myself

The fear clings to me like fresh blood

Everyone can tell can't they?

They see my fear

They know don't they?

I'm shaking and screaming to myself

They can tell and I know they can

I run away and away

Trying to escape

Only then the fear stops

I lock myself away in my room

Drowning in red

I don't get it

I reach out

A trap snaps over my wrist

It calls me closer

I follow closer

It feels me pulsing

It's a trap I tell myself

I lean back pulling myself away

But it pleads

This trap has feelings too

I fall back into his thorny trap

Its bad for me but I can't get away

It needs me more than I need myself

I hand myself over

No longer caring about the snare

I can loose myself

For you and only you

The skies are empty

The clouds gone with the wind

I stare up wondering why

Are they tired?

Did we upset the clouds?

Must they have to go?

Why can't they stay?

Can't we plead?

With a sense of need?

I count them one by one as they leave

I wave goodbye only to see new ones roll in

I smile understanding now

It's okay for them to leave

There will always be more

But i'll still feel the guilt won't I?

Shuffle

Turn

Sigh

I toss and roll

Sleep so many miles away

Agrivation on my tail

Shuffle

Turn

Sigh

I toss and roll

Sleep teases me

Aggravation blankets me

Shuffle

Turn

Grrr

Sleep threatens me

Anger boils me

Shuffle

Growl

Kick

Sleep fears me

Frustration hits me

Sigh

Sigh

Turn

Sleep nears me

Settlement embraces me

Finnally

I rest

The clouds darken and disapear

I stare

You wonder

The sky darkens and stars bloom

I gaze

You fly

I reach for you

You run and run chasing the stars

I smile chasing you

The stars ember and ember

You wonder

I seek

The stars shine

I reach for the stars

You reach with me

We gaze out

Join me once more pretty star

You look at me

I look at you

You fade away with sunrise

I reach for my dove

My star

I reach out to the rails of perfect abyss

My hand wrapping so firmly and crisp

I step forward once more towards this

Only my foot hits the abyss to stumble and trip

I grasp tighter wishing for it

Only if I could reach the abyss

Do they find as harsh this?

How do they grasp and fist?

Does it ease with grace and lear?

Or do they stumble and crash to fear?

Do they manage to keep the tears?

Is it the tears that me fall?

The aching drops stumbling and crashing?

Does it amuse you when I cry to be you?

The blue and gloom lazing down my own

I hope you see my gliss

The envy and jealousy solidded

I hope you stumble and fall

Does the perfect abyss understand?

These are beautiful. I love how you wrote them, they pour emotion into me and I can relate to them so well having had similar feelings myself. <3 Thank you so much for sharing these and I hope to see more from you. You are a wonderful poet.

Did you leave because you realized i felt things?

Love, pain, desire, need

.

Did you leave because I was struggling with them?

Was it the fact I was human?

Not a toy

Not a pet

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Was it like throwing away a candy wrapper only for the candy?

You unwrapped me and expected to get only the hard candy not the stick

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The stick is vital

It holds me

It gives me humanity

It makes me human

.

But you want only the candy don't you?

Everything I do for you only

For your sake

For your attention

For you to stay

.

Yet you left

Did I go bad?

Did you leave me out all night to spoil?

Was the sourness me being human?

Do my feelings upset you?

Make you realize I'm not a toy?

Do they make you understand you can hurt me?

That if you push too far ill sour up with pain?

Emotions?

Feelings?

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I was discarded in the end

Thrown away

Bagged

Crushed.

Now I don't want to throw food outT^T

I love all the emotions they put in me

keep up the good work