i honestly just wanna be allowed to break having to realize soemone who always told you that you can be what you wanna be and support your life choices just basically tell you to give up crushed me so thats fun plus all the stress im keeping nice and tightly bottled up i dont know how long i can hold the hurt in anymore

I wish I could help you and give you a chance to let it out

Putting on a mask and pretending for so long is excruciatingly painful

I did it for years and still do on and off depending who Im with its the worst feeling

i think ive told you how i recently maybe a year or two ago finally dropped the mask and didnt realize how sensitive i was before it i was a mean person cuz of it as well but it was a defensive thing i think

Yeah I dont think I was mean necessarily just very insecure

If needed to stand up for myself I could get mean as I got very defensive

im a short girl with curls i had to be mean or bullies would have walked all over me

Yeah

I got walked all over a ton of times before I decided I was done being walked over

I do think think back and get sad though I feel bad that my younger self had to use a fake persona :/

i think ive seen some things ive said in the past via memories on social midea and though jesus what the heck that was uncalled for xD like i hid my emotions so well nothing phased me

Same XD

the only downside is extreem brutality xD

Yup lmao