Aekkiaros (Ay-key-are-rosse) | Beta Female | Gold pack | Female | Mate N/A
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The last time I remembered seeing a wolf dying, was a very, very long time ago.
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I think I was around one or so. My Sire was the previous Alpha of the pack before he died, but keep in mind he died because he was argumentative and talkative. The arguments that he had with hierarchy were not subdued; it was straight and sharp like a knife. He did not restrain from what he wanted to say. Nor did he think what his actions could cause. So when this happened, he went a little too far with his threats.
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My Sire got his Dam dead and me stolen.
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They snatched me throughout the night and killed my Dam right before. They took my Sire into Protective Custody and ended up killing him, too. This is why I never wanted to be in a pack ever since; this is what made me a Neutral loner. I was forced to watch my Sire die, to "teach me not to make his mistakes". I found Klondike and had one pup with him, Honey.
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The stars were lively tonight, I remarked with a wholehearted giggle. "What's that for?" A dark brown wolf stalked into the cave, his green eyes vibrant with excitement. "Oh, shush, Klondike. I'm having my moment." Klondike smiled and tilted his head to the side with curiosity. "Is it time, do you think?"
"Shush! Leave my den and I'll let you know!"
As you can tell, I've inherited my fierceness from my Sire.
Klondike bowed his head playfully and backed out of the cave, his sweet smell lingering in the damp air. Why did my pup have to be born in the Wet Seasons? I would have preferred something nice, something drier than this mushy stuff. I glanced to the side, awkwardly remembering that this was my first time with pups. I was hoping for two or three, but I knew it felt like one.
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How would I tell him it was time? The pup's feeling its way out? It is coming out, now? I shook my head with fear and worry. My Sire told me that my Dam almost died giving birth to me, so this irrational fear was churning my stomach and making it do somersaults. I hope I came out alive. If I didn't, how would Klondike raise our pup? He had no milk; there was no other option other than letting another female shelter Honey. Or...Klondike couldn't possibly have the courage to let Honey die, did he? No, of course, he wouldn't. That is outrageous.
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But I couldn't help thinking...what if he killed Honey? What if I did? I would not for the life of me live with that decision. Killing my own pup...that's utterly absurd.
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"Klondike!" My birthing began with the only words I could think of other than 'Help, HELP! I have no idea how to do this. I wish I wasn't doing this. I wish I wasn't giving birth to a pup I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO RAISE!!'. Klondike came rushing in, his tail wagging with excitement. "It's happening? It's happening!" He bolted to my side as I was fighting for breath, and murmured consoling words as I fought with teeth and claws and heart.
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Honey was beautiful. The perfect name for the perfect wolf. She was the prettiest pup I've ever seen before: Pale, sandy yellow; creamy green eyes; rippling muscles; she was all I have ever wanted, right there in front of me.
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Now, all I hoped for was for her to never be killed.
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But of course, Klondike could not let that happen.