Jax tried to stop crying as he saw it wasn't helping Noah but he only marginally managed,a few tears still slid down his cheeks. He couldn't help it though. He listened to what the nurse said and nodded but really he still hated they had to do it to him. He was just glad when the procedure was done though and went with the nurse back to the room. Jax sat down on the chair where he was before and smiled quickly at Damien who was watching him anxiously. He sighed as he looked at Jax who wiped away the few tears on his cheeks. As soon as Noah was back in the room though, Jax was just fully focused on him and honestly Damien couldn't blame him. Jax took Noah's hand,interwining their fingers,hoping he wouldn't mind. He studied Noah's face,just relieved he was with him now.

Jason stared at Noah for a good while, but it wasn't helping anything. "Noah will be discharged in two days. Millie requested that he'll be back on the field by the end of the week." Jason thought about it, Noah would only have a week to heal. He sighed as he thought about it, the job was very demanding. He looked up at Jax, "I have to get back to work. I'm guessing your staying here for the rest of the day?" Jason turned around and walked out of the door, he took a deep breath and headed to his car.

Noah slightly tensed up when Jax touched him, he turned his head around when Jason left and saw Jax. He didn't say anything to him, mostly because he was so scared. He was scared of men now and it wasn't a good sign when he has a boyfriend. But that's what they do, if Jax tries hard enough, he can manage to push Noah out of the darkness. Noah looked down, trying to regain control of his arms and hands. He tried to squeeze Jax's hand but couldn't. He did feel a bit better in the legs though, he could probably even walk but he wasn't up for that today. He started getting hungry but just looked at Jax then finally said something, "I'm hungry." He looked at the door then wanted to say what he wanted but couldn't, he just figured Jax knew him enough to figure out what he wanted which was a salad and baked potato.

Jax looked over at Jason as he talked but furrowed his brow at him saying that Noah would have to go back to his job so soon. He couldn't get why,especially after something like that had happened but shook it off. If he kept thinking about that would just worry him again and that wasn't what Jax wanted to be doing. He nodded at Jason "Yeah" he spoke simply,he didn't want to leave Noah and was definitely not going anywhere for a while. Jax smiled slightly as Noah looked at him. He nodded at what he said "Okay" he spoke with a smile as he walked out the room. Jax had been slightly worrying that he didn't know what to do to help but now atleast he could do something,he did wonder what to get for Noah but just remembered what he had made for him before and decided to get that.

Jax got the baked potato with salad and took it back up to Noah's room before giving it to him with a small smile. He sat down beside the bed again and glanced at Damien who just smiled quickly.

Noah felt dizzy but ignored it, his feelings were in the way of what he thought. He couldn't believe this was happening to him, after all the pain he's gone through over the years, this is what he gets? He doesn't deserve this, and he knows it too. Going to school for eight years, having a rich life he built by himself, an abusive family, it all isn't worth what he's going through. But it makes it all worth it if he can see Jax all day every day. He smiled at the thought but barley, it looked like he didn't even smile at all. He sighed as he saw Jax enter the room, he saw the food and immediately started to shake due to how hungry he was. He didn't say anything when he was served the food. He used all his force to try and pick up the fork but couldn't, he couldn't eat the food, not without assistants. He looked at Jax with a pouty face, "I can't eat. I need help." He was embarrassed when he said that, but he couldn't eat if he couldn't pick up the fork. Fuck these drugs the people used on me. The drugs were wearing off but his arms were one of the strongest parts of his body so it takes longer for the drug to wear off. He felt even more embarrassed when he realized that he practically just asked if Jax could feed him. His cheeks felt warm and sure enough it was red. He looked down so Jax couldn't see the embarrassment on his face.

Jax smiled again at Noah,he still felt abit sad that he was in the hospital in the first place but mostly just angry at the guys who had done this to him. He pushed the feelings away and just focused on how he was with Noah now. Jax looked at Noah as he said about needing help and nodded, if he was honest he would do anything for Noah if he wanted him too so didn't really give it another thought. He noticed Noah seemed abit embarassed and just said "It's alright" he spoke quietly not wanting him to feel embarassed. He picked up the fork,getting some of the food and took the fork to Noah's mouth.

(Wow its so hard to type with a puppy jumping all over me 😂)

Noah started eating what Jax fed him. He choked when he saw Millie and Anna. "Oh god." Noah started choking again and Anna realized that Millie wasn't doing anything to help. She rolled her eyes and went over to Noah and 'punched' him in the chest in the right area. She caught the piece of lettuce and put it down on the plate. "You ok?" Noah nodded as he coughed again. Anna looked up at Jax then at Noah. Noah immediately went mute and didn't say a thing to Millie or Anna. He looked around and saw Millie near the door, "How was the semen analysis?" Anna tried to joke around to make Noah feel better but it wasn't helping, all Noah did was shrug. Anna smiled as she pulled a chair up to the bed, across from Jax. She held his hand in hers, "Alright well I'm sure it was painful, I'm no male but I can see it being painful. I've seen a few procedures done," She smiled then added, "on Jason. Boy you should have seen him. He was crying so hard." Noah turned around, leaving Anna to face his back. Noah looked at Jax and liped, 'Help.' He didn't want Anna there, it wasn't helping him. Millie caught sight of what Noah liped and read it, she took a deep breath and walked over at Noah and smiled. "We will be going now. We just want to make a quick stop by." She bent down and kissed Noah on the forehead, ignoring Jax. She gave Noah one last smile before getting Anna up and leaving.

(Aww, I'm about to see a puppy… I hope)

Jax looked over at Millie and Anna hearing them enter the room before looking back at Noah as he started choking. He wasn't exactly sure what to do so was just glad that Anna helped him. He only looked at Anna and Millie quickly before looking back at Noah. Jax didn't know exactly why he did it but he just knew that he couldn't take his eyes off Noah. He listened to what they both asked him and although he wasn't good at reading people he could still tell Noah wasn't really liking Anna and Millie being there. Jax smiled briefly at Noah as he turned to him and looked at him,he nodded slightly aswell at what he said and lookdd at Millie and Anna. He was about to say something when Millie did. Jax looked back at him as they left and ran a hand through Noah's hair gently before resting his hand on his.

(Aww,cutee!!)

Noah was beyond grateful that Anna and Millie left, honestly he just couldn't deal with people right now, except Jax of course. He opened up his arms, wanting Jax to cuddle with him. He felt too heartbroken and wanted comfort and Jax was the only one who can do that, let alone touch him. He looked at his unfinished meal and shrugged slightly, not caring to eat anymore, plus in his mind cuddling with Jax is way better than eating, although he couldn't say the same with Jason. He grinned slightly at the thought, he also wanted to go home but he then realized that he hasn't been to his apartment in forever. But that didn't care, he wanted to go home and home was now in Jax's apartment. He sighed at the thought and looked at Jax and finally said something. "I want cuddles." He tried not to smile or laugh but he just couldn't, he smiled and Jax was the first to see him smile.

Jax bit back a sigh as he was thinking about how that morning and past night everything was great,of course that had all changed because of what happened and the thought that the other guys who had done this to Noah were still out there made him overly angry. He looked back up at Noah as he opened his arms and spoke with a smile. Jax smiled back at Noah as he got onto the bed with him and wrapped his arms around him. It felt so good to be able to hug him again and Jax realised just how much he had missed it. He ran his hands through Noah's hair and smiled again at him.

(Sorry it's short)

Noah smiled when Jax got in the bed with him. He couldn't help but blush at him and snuggled closely. He inhaled the smell of Jax and smiled, he missed this, the only downside to this was that it almost costed his life to realize that love is more than just he noticed the first time. He held onto Jax tight like if he held on any looser than he would just vanish. He started crying at the thought, slightly upset at himself for making himself cry more but he couldn't help it. He was too fragile and broke. "I love you." He said it outloud and even kissed Jax's neck, "I'll love you 'til the day I die." He didn't even bother to look up at Jax as he just wanted to feel safe in his arms.

(Ah it's alright. I'm reading another book so I may get characters and settings mixed up.)