well, I'm sure some of you know the old pack of jschlatt. If not, okay. Well that was me and I took a break to figure out my mental issues. I did figure myself out, but not for the best.

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My paranoia and anxiety seemed to have gotten worse. I am terrified of doing anything without worrying about the consequences. I am sad. I am so sad.

I want to be a guy, but my parents hate that shit, so I'm stuck in a body and pronouns and name that make me even worse. I wanna be Ashwood, a he/him, not who I'm forced to be, a she/her. Ugh, I hate this.

I have a boyfriend, but this is a whole new can of worms. He left me a few weeks ago to ask another girl out, then said it was a joke and got back with me. I was so hurt and confused. Now, today, he asked for a poly relationship and now I'm freaking tf out again. I said yes, and I'm fine with it, 100%, but I'm just so angry and paranoid. Am I not enough? Isn't my affection and love good enough for a monogamous relationship?

I just wanna sit down and be happy for once.

Wolfplay is making it better actually. I'm doing ychs and they distract me, and my wolves actually make me wanna do lore and restarting the whole pack thing. Of course, though, since its online, ill be grounded soon enough and I won't be able to do anything on here.

Sorry this is all over the place, I've been a mess all day.

Gn, wolfplay.

-problem.

I know it's been a long time since this was posted, but I just read this and wanted to say that you are absolutely enough! While some people do relationships differently, it sounds to me like the person you are (or at least were) in a relationship is either immature or struggling with their own issues. Even if someone has feelings for more than one person, and migh want a poly relationship, you do NOT break up with someone then tell them it's a joke after...

I don't know this person so I can't and I won't blame them or pretend to know their reasons, but I do know that no one deserves that. Whether ill-intentioned or not, they did it for reasons relating to THEM, and has nothing to do with you not being good enough.

I hope you are doing better now then you were when you wrote this post <3