Damien glared at AJ "I wont trust me" He practically spat the words out. He was even angrier than he was when Quint was beating him up and his house was being destroyed. Now that was saying something. He vaguely noticed AJ had let go of him and rubbed his shoulder slowly. He heard Jasons voice but didn't want to look at him. Damien wondered why he stayed but did anyway. He listened to what they were saying and glared at the back of AJ's head. So that's how the guys saw it,a competition for Jason. Well,he definitely didn't want to get involved. Damien would never want to try out compete other guys just for someone,that wasn't how he was. Damien looked Jason up and down before crossing his arms. It was if he didn't even know Jason anymore,it felt like that anyway. "Fine" was all Damien said and he raised his eyebrow.

Jason took a deep breath and started, “Look, I don’t see it as a competition, of course AJ and Quint see it like that. Um but both aren't really for me, of course I’m happy that I love them and they love me but I think I need to move on past them. You know, before I even had a job I was abused by AJ. We went through 5 years of a toxic relationship then I missed him for 20 years then I found Quint and it was sort of love at first sight. But then AJ showed up in my life again and everything just changed. The guys changed, they saw everything as a competition. They tried to be better than the other person, it went on for about a year and it’s still going on. Of course I know you’re that type of guy who doesn’t like to do those types of things but I’m just asking you to wait. Wait until I deal with Quint and AJ, I like you and I want to give you a chance instead of just throwing you into a competition. I gave many guys a chance, a separate chance, even Quint and AJ got their own 5 months of just me, they didn’t have to share me for those 5 months. But um yeah, I just want to give you a chance, I get that you probably hate me for going and having sex with AJ right after we had sex but I hope you can forgive me.” A few tears went down his cheek, he did mean every word of what he said and he didn’t regret saying anything. He did look at Damien as he was talking but as soon as he stopped, his eyes fell to the ground. He didn’t expect for Damien to say anything and just walk away but at that point, he would just kill himself. Although he hoped that it wouldn’t happen.

Damien listened to Jason,he made sure to keep a blank expression on his face but then that was all he felt so he couldn't really change that. At this point he didn't know what to trust or what to believe. Jason had hurt Damien a lot but really he just blamed that on himself,he blamed himself for getting too close and on letting things go so far. He could have stopped it and resisted just like everything he had done before but no. Damien bit his lip before looking to the side "Jason stop" he said first of all "I don't know what is going on and I don't even know if I can trust myself let alone trust you. You just had sex with another guy what do you expect from me" Damien stopped after saying that before shaking his head slowly,he had never been so honest with words out loud "Look you've really just fucked everything up with me,like I can't even think properly without you being on my mind,you know I liked it until this. I don't trust easily and when I do if that is broken" Damien shrugged,god his head was really annoying him. He didn't want Jason to hate him for saying it but he had to,he couldn't not say it anymore.

Jason started shaking and started breathing heavily, “Right, I know you don’t trust me. I won’t force you to do something you’re not comfortable with. I’m really sorry for kissing you and everything, I know I shouldn’t have. I’m sorry, I’ll leave.” And with that Jason started crying, it felt like he was leaving behind trails of rivers behind. He had never cried so hard before, he walked over and passed AJ. AJ looked back at Damien then followed Jason back to his house, Jason didn’t say a single word. “Jason, you need to go back to the hospital.” Jason shook his head and continued to walk. Once he reached his house, he went inside and let AJ in. He went straight to the bed and sobbed for a good 30 minutes. AJ didn’t bother to kiss him or anything, he didn’t even know what the conversation between Jason and Damien was. God, AJ was about to kill Damien for hurting Jason like this. AJ laid in the bed, facing the opposite of Jason. AJ let him have some space and thoughts were rushing through his head. Jason couldn’t help but flood the bed with tears, all AJ could hear was whines and consent crying.

(Oh my god, this is sad. I’m crying right now…)

Damien nodded,he just wanted to forget everything. It was better this way,he told himself. He had to tell himself that it was for the best. He had to. He couldn't let himself think anything else. Damien didn't want to hear Jason cry and walked away. He took deep breaths,it was the only thing that felt normal. His mind felt numb along with his lungs and everything. God,it was hard. Damien headed back to his house and sat on the sofa his head in his hands. No,dont think,dont think. He knew if he did that his mind would go straight to the one person he didn't want to think about. Damien wondered why the decision he thought was right felt so wrong. It was right,it was. Just why did it feel so bad. Damien sighed.

(Agh,donntt I'll cry myself in a minute D:)

After about two hours of crying, AJ finally said something. “Hey, you’re going to hyperventilate. You need to stop.” AJ turned around and helped Jason sit up straight on the bed. Jason couldn’t help but just cry, AJ did wonder what Damien and Jason were talking about but it was none of his business. He heard the door knock and AJ got up, he went and opened the door to find that Anna was pissed, Millie seemed like someone had just fucked with her and Isaiah. Well he acted like a kid in her arms. “Welcome in.” AJ smiled as he got a slap from Anna. “What was that for!?” Anna slammed her butt on the couch and crossed her arms. “Where is Jason?” Her voice sounded pissed and somewhat had a little worried tone to it although her feistiness hid that. AJ rubbed his nape as he looked at the rug he was standing on, “In his bedroom.” Anna immediately got up and ran to the room, Millie sat down and Isaiah was dead asleep in her arms. AJ didn’t want to go where Anna was so he just stayed down there and talked to Millie about a few things. Jason heard someone coming to the room and looked up to see who it was. Anna was shocked when she saw that Jason was crying, she couldn’t help but feel bad. She stopped herself and walked slowly to the bed, “Hey.” She sat down next to Jason and ran her fingers through his hair, hoping it would make him feel better. Jason didn’t say a word to her, Anna hadn’t seen Jason cry like this before, except when he broke up with AJ about 20 years ago. Anna sighed as she took his hand and wrapped her own hand around his. “It’s going to be ok. Do you want to tell me what happened?” Jason shook his head as he looked at the comforter on the bed. This was going to be a long and hurtful day for Jason.

(lol)

Damien let thoughts consume him,there was no other thing to do,they were just there constantly and the only way to get rid of them was by thinking about them and thinking them through. Maybe it would help with everything and him getting over Jason. Damien was determined to not miss him. He headed into the shower for a second time that day and let his thoughts wander under the warm water. This had been what Damien was scared about letting Jason get close to him. Fuck,he knew this would have happened. Why did he carry on going along with the feeling,he should have just ignored it from the start or atleast stopped before he had gotten like this. Now that it had though,Damien didn't know what to do about it.

Jason kept taking deep breaths and continued to stare at the bed. Anna finally spoke up and asked, “What do you want to do? You can’t stay here forever.” She smiled as she laid her head on Jason’s shoulder, Jason nodded slowly. “I know.” Anna looked around the room, then an idea hit her. “How about we get some food? Some pasta can clear your head!” She jumped up and pulled on Jason’s arms and literally dragged him by his arms over to the living room. He groaned as he started to get up. “Fine Anna!” He got up and wiped all the dust off his shirt. He looked at AJ and Millie, they were asleep on his couch. He smiled as he noticed that Isaiah was waking up, he didn’t want him to bother Millie or AJ so he grabbed him and put on some shoes. “Alright let’s go.” Anna nodded and shut the door, behind Jason. The three went and got in the car. Jason put Isaiah in the backseat then got in the driver's seat, Anna sat on the passenger's seat of course. She didn’t say anything nor did she have a reaction. Jason started driving over to his favorite restaurant around the corner, it wasn’t anything fancy or high quality food. It was a simple small restaurant. Jason parked in the front and got out, he opened the backseat and got Isaiah. At this point Isaiah was starving, Jason did forget to feed him a decent lunch so… Isaiah was screaming at this point. “Alright, you’re about to get some food, big guy!” Jason carried Isaiah inside the building, holding the door to let Anna inside as well. “Table for three.” The person nodded as she led them to a booth against the wall. Isaiah got in first and Jason sat next to him, Anna sat on the opposite side of the table. A person brought out some garlic bread and two menus for them to look through.

Damien finally got out the shower,it had definitely been pleasant except for the thoughts bothering him. He wondered downstairs to make himself a meal and just made a salad before eating that. He didn't feel like eating anything else and barely managed to finish it. A sudden tiredness hit him making him feel both mentally and physically tired. Damien knew it was still fairly early but he knew he needed the sleep and wasn't going to try make himself feel worse. Well,he didn't know if he felt worse than before or not. No,still numb. Damien knew something would hit him soon but what and when,he couldn't be sure of. He headed back upstairs and got into his bed smelling the faint smell of Jason from when he had slept in his bed. Damien breathed in the smell before falling asleep to it.

After dinner the three went home, after they arrived Jason carried AJ to his bedroom and laid him down on the bed. It was a bit too late to go back to their own house so Anna decided to stay there. Anna put Millie on the couch long ways and climbed on top of her. Anna's head rested on Millie's chest and her arms around her waist. Jason carried Isaiah to the bedroom and put him in the bed as well. Jason hoped into bed and started falling asleep when he felt another body hit him. Quint had just gotten home, what a very full bed the men had. AJ slept on the far side of the left, Isaiah slept between AJ and Jason and Quint slept on the very right side of the bed. That way, everyone can touch a part of Jason. Jason fell asleep, thinking about Damien. He couldn't get his mind off of him, he got too attached to Damien and there was no way to detach from that. He finally drifted off to sleep, too many thoughts put him to sleep.