Kyyre’s body reacted before his brain could catch up. The moment Leon’s fingers so much as ghosted against his skin, his mouth opened, and an instinctual, breathless “No” ripped out of him. Sharp, immediate, unfiltered. It startled even him, his voice barely more than a desperate rasp, but there was no taking it back now.
His entire body was wired, every muscle strung tight, tension coiling in his limbs like a spring about to snap. His face was still burning, flushed all the way to the tips of his ears, and his chest ached from the sheer force of his own heartbeat. He could feel the heat radiating off of Leon, the weight of his presence so close, too close, pressing in around him like a cage.
His own hands had curled into the furs at his sides, gripping them in a vice as though that alone would keep him tethered to reality. His lungs struggled to pull in a full breath, his throat so tight he could barely swallow around it. His mind was a fractured mess, flickering wildly between incoherent panic and something much, much worse.
He refused to look at him.
He couldn’t.
Because if he did, if he met those sharp amber eyes, if he saw that expression, that unreadable yet devastatingly focused gaze—
His brain would short-circuit entirely.
He squeezed his eyes shut instead, dragging in a shaky breath through his nose, trying desperately to shove down the firestorm in his chest. His pulse was out of control, rattling against his ribs like it wanted to escape. This was stupid, so, so stupid. He needed to get it together.
But gods, it was impossible when Leon was right there, when his scent was thick in the air, when his damp fur and scarred skin were still branded into the backs of his eyelids like a cursed afterimage.
This wasn’t fair.
None of this was fair.
The word slips past his lips before he can stop it.
"Please."
A whisper, barely even a sound, more breath than voice. His throat tightens immediately after, as if trying to choke it back, as if it could somehow undo what had already been said. But it’s too late. The word is out there, hanging in the air between them, raw and fragile in a way that makes his stomach twist.
He doesn’t even know why he said it. Doesn’t know what he’s asking for, only that something inside him is pulling, reaching, begging. For what? Understanding? Distance? More?
His mind is a mess, splintered and fraying at the edges, unable to process anything beyond the thundering pulse in his ears and the unbearable heat crawling up his spine. He feels exposed, like something vital has been wrenched out of him and laid bare, and there’s no way to shove it back inside.
His breath stutters as he curls in on himself just slightly, fingers still twisted into the furs beneath him like they’re the only thing keeping him from unraveling completely. He doesn’t dare open his eyes.
He’s terrified of what he’ll see if he does.