Song: Gb Eating Gb Whilst Listening To Gb by Crywank.

(With some slight adjustments to the lyrics to avoid as much repeating and make it more accurate to characters in certain places)

Characters: Garvin. Rest of GRAIN and Devery mentioned.

Context:

Um… I got distracted. Plus. You did Garvin from the polycule’s perspective so I just had to do the polycule from Garvin’s perspective. But like. In the way you did the song Confident for Ingall. It’s also mostly in order of how they join the relationship. Except for Akira. Who gets to go last, for reasons.

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*Starting before Nico joins Garvin and Akira and causes that confusion, we have Garvin’s views of Nico. Honestly, I’d say this is before the Body Arc even. Just my guy has no actual clue. Dude is not too good at figuring out his own emotions, haha.*

Garvin, about Nico, referencing how upbeat they always manage to seem even to a degree that Garvin doesn’t believe it, this also references some of Garvin’s paranoia though, especially the last two lines; “Enthusiastic… Beyond belief. In a busy room, you’re all I see. I fear this admiration will be the end of me… Blurring the lines between what I want and what I need…”

Garvin, being who he is, ignores it because he has no idea what else he could do, especially by the time the Body Arc happens; “Calm down… Calm down… Don’t let them see how fast your heart is beating… Calm down… Calm down… Control your breathing…”

*Ingall’s turn! I can easily see them getting together because of Garvin. Like, Ingall starts giving food and dropping hints, mostly by accident probably, and Garvin, probably after talking about it with Nico and Akira, gets Ingall into the relationship. Nico probably helps a lot too. Ingall being Ingall though is probably still kind of distant.*

Garvin, acting like the absolute confident guy Ingall thinks him to be, almost teasing because he is not willing to admit Ingall being distant is making him think maybe he’d been reading the other wrong; “And if you don’t want me… Well, that’s just tough luck.”

Garvin, but of course, he is starting to think that he might’ve been wrong, but he also cannot admit that to Ingall because, well, what if he’s wrong about being wrong, then Ingall might actually realize that Garvin shouldn’t be wrong about being wrong and, yeah, that’s getting confusing there, isn’t it; “I think about you but I know I’m not good enough… And I built you up too much, now I can’t say what’s on my mind in case I go and scare you away…”

Garvin, so as he does, he decides to just ignore it all yet again; “Calm down… Calm down… Don’t let them see how fast your heart is beating… Calm down… Calm down… Control your breathing…”

*And now. The truly fun one. Revan. Because, yeah, Garvin accepts him into the polycule rather quickly and technically starts dating him rather quickly too. Much quicker than Akira, at least. But like. That’s about it. The two don’t get close for… A long time. And before they do, Garvin’s pretty much convinced he’s the last person Revan could ever actually want.*

Garvin, just referring to how Revan probably has way better people he could be choosing, to how he doesn’t really have anything he can offer him; “All the people you meet will have thoughts up to mystic and sweet… And how can I compete? With the world at your feet…”

*Now for a little intermission before Akira’s turn— Just some of Garvin’s thoughts on the polycule as a whole. Oh, and the forming of a slight rift in his friendship with, most likely, Devery due to… Some things. Don’t worry about it.*

Garvin, just referring to all of the polycule and the worries he has; “Would it be cruel to let my eyes return to you? Would it be cruel to give my thoughts to you?”

Garvin, just that slight rift I mentioned; “Feelings for friends turn to hate when I see what they are willing to throw away… And now I envy a fool who only negates anything with deeper meaning he tries to say…”

Garvin, referring to those worries and doubts about the polycule again because, guess what, they’re not gone; “Would it be cruel to let my eyes return to you? Would it be cruel to give my thoughts to you?”

*And now, it’s finally time for Akira’s! Unlike everyone else who gets Garvin’s brand of uncertainty about being lovable whatsoever and/or being good enough for literally anyone… Akira gets something else— Garvin making progress, kind of, in the category of the self-destructive bar scene we have planned/the whole category of basically begging for ‘love’. But more so because of how Akira reacts to it than because of any progress actually being made. Oops.*

Garvin, still not totally convinced that it’d hurt him but, well; “I wouldn’t want to hurt you… By letting you hurt me. You don’t deserve to feel all guilty…”

*And now we get Garvin just hating on himself and doubting his worth and whatnot again, haha…*

Garvin, just, you know, being shitty to himself and truly thinking that the entire polycule could do so much better than him; “I’m an overly sensitive, impatient, little freak— You’d do better to turn your back on me…”

Garvin, basically hating on himself for hating on himself; “Why do I think these stupid thoughts? I wanna fight my own advice for I will only feel remorse…”

Garvin, referring to the polycule; “I just want you in my life…”