Tala was taken aback. She was trying to manipulate him, it's true, yet she did not expect to be so...successful. She had expected uncomfortable, placating response, as most would give to a crying criminal. And then Tala could curry a favor or two. Not one where she was immediately validated and assured. And there's just something about the way Lucan said it. Something gentle, strong, and sincere.
She let herself be pulled into his arms and hugged him back. Tightly. The warmth of another person... Tala had almost forgotten. As if being offered a fancy meal she normally wouldn't get, Tala greedily took the hug, not even savoring it.
"This is the first hug I've gotten in years. Thank you." Tala chuckled in her tears. She felt her eyes dry out, her crocodile tears stopping. What she felt was not relief. It was fear.
Why is he so kind? What is he thinking? Is he trying to manipulate her? What's happening?
She felt him pull away and her stomach dropped. She began to panic. This situation was unfamiliar. It was not supposed to happen like this. She was supposed to have control in this 'play'.
Tala's eyes followed Lucan's fingers as he moved to wipe her tears. Her expression betrayed her. Fear took over her eyes as she made eye contact with him.
"I-" Tala choked and inched away from him. "Ah, I'm sorry. I'm just overwhelmed." She gulped, avoiding eye contact as she tried to quell her panicking thoughts. "By your kindness. You're really kind."
It was a defensive mechanism. As Lucan spoke his promise, Tala immediately knew she had to run away from him. She did not want to know how he planned to achieve it. She was scared of even thinking about whether he meant it or not. It's better to not think about such things and let herself hope. At the moment, Lucan was too much for her. She needed to be away from him, and just rely on herself, just as how she was used to.
She could secretly leave tonight, when they stop to camp. Or she could leave when they're outside the city walls, that would be safer for her. Her stomach twisted as she thought of Barley's promise. A clean bed, a peaceful home, and a proper warm dinner. She wanted it so badly. Perhaps she should stick with the plan after all. At least until she experienced those things, just for one night...then she'll leave.