my friends are going through some shit right now, one of them has been hospitalized due to a panic attack/tic attack combination and the people that caused it are acting like they've done nothing wrong. and, on top of that, they had the fucking nerve to misgender my friend, too. like how shitty of a person can you be?

im an angry, possessive, protective person by nature. i lost a lot of people growing up, nobody ever really stayed for a long time, and i just became very protective over people that did stay and now people are hurting someone that is mine and im not allowed to do anything about it because ill get in trouble with my father if i get physically involved in drama.

im this close to saying fuck it and getting involved anyway. ive already tried to speak to them, to tell them our side of the story, why we're all so pissed off and how this person that they're defending is wrong (long story short--someone fucked us over, said a slur, and wont leave us alone, and we got angry, and these two messaged one of our friends to get really pissed off about it and to defend the person that fucked us over). but they didnt listen. i am so, so close to doing something that im definitely going to regret.

everyone is waiting for me to explode. my girlfriend's told them both that they fucked up by pissing me off, because i tried to calmly explain to them and they cussed me out and tried to rile me up even more. my boyfriend's told everyone to just leave me alone for the time being because of how angry i am. and this friend that they did this to is someone that we were going to ask to join our relationship. i fucking love them. so much. and someone hurt them.

im just so fucking angry. i dunno.